Today....

Today.....

I almost missed exam at 2pm today!! Deeply in sleep... i was dreaming too but i was awaken with shock that my dream went *poof* along with my consiousness at 1.50pm! -.-" Thanks adik...

Supremo ball. WTH? so many of my batch mates are pulling out?!
So, the question is, Is it because of Unis exam -OR- DATELESS???

Btw, these ppl here are lack of publicity ler...
I see no posters, no intensive peep talk to further encourage participations and i see NO EXCITEMENT!!!!
Blah~ maybe, im too entertainment orientated. But.. but... its one day after block exam and 3 more weeks into Unis onli mah~!
After the hooha that lasted 15 minutes in the lecture hall, my mind travelled back in time to ICPU prom... and... *sigh* paham paham sajelar.... I hate to feel emo k! but my resistance towards this kinda sentiment seems to be extremely vulnerable. Vision blurred from Upadiya's ugly drawing on the board... while that ass's image gained its vividness!

btw, im very discouraged by all the negative feedback from my kawan-kawan seperjuangan...

lastly, i hate the musky atmosphere surrounding the air in my room now... I hate moistured bed sheet, clothes, and smelly damp-y environment. Tempted to blast my air cond but im feeling too cold!

"What am i to do? I hate my mind when it goes wandering in the realm of memories...."

*closes eyelids..... and breathe in cupful of slightly less fresher air, koff-koff-* I STILL HATE the odour!

and i mourn for tao kua too... *sob sob.... waves...* Cheer up dude... theres alwayz skype and msn...onli lack of physical-nesssss.... -.-"

A short story of Mini

A short story of Mini...


I juz killed an ant. A black one. A BIG one. In my toilet.

I drowned the poor fella with bubble of Dove's soap. (speaking of which, i thought Dove's product was supposed to be pH neutral?)

I tried wiping it out (letme giv it a name-"Mini"), yeah, wiping Mini out yesterday by attempting to drain out through the hole on the floor (dunno wats it called). It went vanishing after i sloshed a bucket of water. -succesful- I see no trace of tentacles crawling back from the hole. AHA! Sneaky sneaky fella! Woke up today morning and saw it!!!! Relaxing on my red floor tiles!

Ignorance is a bliss. I didnt wanna kill it the 2nd time. (one reason, i still found my love for animals or insects or living creature still intact. Secondly, i feel disgusted! MINI is too huge! i wouldnt wanna imagine how it will look like after I squash it FLAT! i dont want all its internal organs to ooze out and distort it's body. If it was as tiny as those normal annoying red ants with black ass, it would have die-ed long AGO!) Hoping Mini would have understood to pack up and leave my toilet/room asap!

Good enough, I came back from class seeing that I was the only creature in my room. At the back of the head, you wouldnt know how thankful was I. But................

NOooooooo! Mini made its grand show-up when I entered the toilet when nature called! Man! I was furious! Lil did i know it was camping somewhere near the S-bend pipe of the toilet bowl! Ishhh~~~ Fine, I passed the attempt to have it destroyed then. However I woke up at 12am having my beast instinct taken over me!Temptation was too strong for me to anhilhate Mini....
Aih~ who ask you to hang around for too long...? I gave you a few chances yo...

:: Ants partying. Mini looks like one of them... T.T ::

Anywayz, RIP Mini...
I actually feel remorse over it! -.-"

< Facts

Something different from me and my usual ranting. Have fun and enjoy!
Article courtesy of JH Lim.

If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days, you would have
produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee.

A pig's orgasm lasts for 30 minutes. (In my next life I want to
be a pig!)

Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour.
(Still not over that pig thing!)

Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for
pleasure. (Is that why Flipper was always smiling? And, why
isn't the pig included here?)

The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue. (Hmmmmm.....)

The ant can lift 50 times its own weight, can pull 30 times its
own weight and always falls over on its right side when
intoxicated. From drinking little bottles of...?) (Did the
gov't pay for this research??)

Polar bears are left handed. (I'm sure glad somebody found that
out!)

A cockroach will live nine days without it's head, before it
starves to death. ( So my ex-husband WAS a cockroach after
all!)

The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is
attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the
male's head off. ("Honey, I'm home! What the....")

Some lions mate over 50 times a day. (In my next life I still
want to be a pig... quality over quantity!)

Butterflies taste with their feet.
(hmmm...chocolate...doh!...not chocolate, not chocolate! BAD
DOG!)

An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain. (I know some people
like that.)

Remember, when someone annoys you, it takes 42 muscles in your
face to frown. BUT, it only takes 4 muscles to extend your arm
and smack the jerk upside the head.

Ming's Bfday~

Note: I juz cant upload any freaking pics for this particular blog. I gave up after tryin for two days continuously. its even boring now!

AIKS! This entry is going to shout: damn BORING!!!! (im serious)
The usual normal mundane e-ver-y-day life bloggging style.

"From dis time to another time along with the itenaries"

Thus, this is a warning from sulin.

I juz came out from shower! Im SUPER DUPER clean now! Thanks to Kizzy who has been bugging me to shower since 2 hrs before she even entered her bathroom! lolz. Well, my sugar surge was prolonged and high in magnitude! I was hyped up for sometime. Thuff~ wat to do? so many unhappy and unnessary events had to come tagging along recently.

Basically im happy at this moment! It has been quite some time, I feel so great for such continuous period of time. Stimulation of laughters was working pretty smoothly for me today. I cackled for the stupidest thing on earth! sigh~ (dis is wat medicine course does to me) Oh before dat, Congratulations to Liutenant Jia Hong for the superb game performed today! U are gonna "sapu" the title for the Supremo game Champion in no time! Make sure u do! Im betting my whole "san ka" on you dei! LOLZ! oh oh~ not forgetting lembu and sotong oso!

After the game, all of us rushed back, got ready then attended Ming's surprise birthday party. Am proud I made a nice combination of outing outfits today! Always keeping track so that I don't repeat what wear before while try to mismatch everything I have. Since my wardrobe over here has limited stock, I had to crack my head sometimes.

TA-DA-! Today's black top wif the nice hawai-ish flowery two-toned pink skirt with pink earrings as my accessories was put together and they are juz simply pretty! *beam wif proudnezz*

However much kawaii or pretty or sexy (perasan-ness) I see myself in any outfit, I ended up being a clumsy soul which makes me juz the total opposite of eveything I have mentioned. T.T Gawd~ I had to hit myself on one metal part of the "Oto" wifey and I were boarding! Now blue black even green purplish! I don't know! And its damn painful! EEOooouuWWWww!

Reached Ozone (underground destination of the top secret party in which there is free flow of pool game and bowling!), shouted surprise MING, sang "Happy birthday to MING" repeatedly, wish Ming happy birthday, and ya-da ya-da ya-da~ Am going to talk about what I feel are interesting only lar ok?

p/s: missed Germany-Sweden game today! AGRH! 2-0, both goals from 21 years old dude-PODOLSKI. Huhuhu~ Germany.... WeeeHeeeee! They made it through again!

1st event: ke-muhibah-an! Never gotten such huge crowd from batch 17 consisting of friends of different colour as such! Good job Korean! *thumbs up*

2nd event: sotong puji me! when lar those bunch of baboons ever wanna pass a copliment to me? All they ever did was annoy me to tahap max! Mentang-mentang lar im a lesser female.

3rd event:
ANSON DANCED??
ANSON REALLY DANCED!
ANSON REALLY DANCED WITH STYLE!
ANSON REALLY DANCE WITH STYLE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DANCE FLOOR ALONE!
In sort-he again, made his fans oogles and goes "ooo, wahhh~" (including me! LOLZ) but, I didnt oogle, if I cud take a pic of myself, my face wud be captured with frowns and suspicious eyes!) MAN! it was an IMPRESSIVE dance if you have known anson for almost 2 years and him not showing ANY sign at all he cud even move his body along with music! I cant believe he was actually being so modest! Ngiam Choon Jin! Argh! Now u sing on the court, at the pool table, now u even sing on the dance floor! wat else are u hidding! Common! "sai lang" ur skills! Dont give us-especially mel and I heart attack all the time. Gotta be with you for the next 5 years wei! But newayz, realli, credits go to you. *sweat* too bad I was too buzy debating with myself whether I was actually dreaming or drunk watching him moved that I didnt take a pic of him showing off! LOLZ! Peribahasa: diam diam ubi berisi oh~

Slot: shien yee (currently known as Tasik ShienYee-self proclaimed during Dy's pretence golf game, wtf) also danced! not bad not bad! even Steven Tan! PohHock usual lar, perform his break dance. *thuff... showing off! bluek~

4th event: Bowling was fun! Pool became sucky! Wifey was so cute having to learn her first ever bowling lesson! Cuter still when her face had the WORD: APPALLED written across whenever she failed to send the 8 kg ball to the centre of the end of the lane! Gutter! Gutter all the way! Aiya, first time, learning like dat lar. Obviously she got the hang of it pretty fast! almost strike k! Another alcoholic target. sigh~ These ppl owe their liver big time! She was hogging a bottle of HUGE SIZE BEER BOTTLE ALL TO HERSELF!

5th event: Sewdo was extraordinary shy and diam diam today. Usual gua. Hahah! Faster master shuffling wei!

6th event: Went over to Edge around 11.20pm. Curfew at 12.ooam. I was sooo phreaking ecstaci-fied having to see bebe & sujaina and the rest of my fella friends from btch 16 after so so so so so so so long! They have been locking themselves up for 2 weeks due to block exam! Both naveen/navin were behaving really cute too! Nah~ Its juz a normal indication that they have been downing beer for the day instead of water comsumption. Hussain chopped his hair, god noes why. maybe has a new resolution that is to start over again! *ehem*

Alas, I had to ass outta that place with kissy at 5 minutes before 12! (oh, btw u dancing queen, never knew u cud shake ur bootie like dat!, Yummyzz ^-^)

i am dissapointed because i still find love within that much of hatred....
why do i even bother...?
why do i even care...?

"Reflections"

"Reflections"

will the world be a better place without me...?

people i love are hurt along the way...,
i witness the agony with my own vision.
i feel the stab too
either half or double the ache, i know not...,

Ironically it was me who hurt them.
funny how i was the source of their emotional turbulence.
eventually contributed to a devastatingly high scores
outnumbering individuals who can still smile genuinely at me.

Regardless of what I do.
I try too hard sometimes, to set everything in equilibrium.
And I am being too hard on myself.
sorry never sizzles the fire of hatred.
onli guilt serves the purpose of living.

i please and i displease,
i love and hate,
i come and leave,
i bulid and i demolish,
i horrify and i satisfy,
i am a friend and i am a foe.

i am impatient but i withstand...

i am happy and i am gloomy...
i tear and I smile.

i am scared and i am strong.
i fear and i dont doubt
i care and i am nasty

i am sulin and i am not myself
i am her...
Her...the person i see in the mirror everyday
downside up, outside in
the world is the actual reflection.
the surreal is the real.
what i see is what she dreams

I only survive thinking i was not a bogus
I live in between two mirrors...
in which i see many hers...
each one think the rest are images

Strangely...,
I am "ME" for every she....

note: as kai puts it- the title is pun intended.

Only Love,
Su-Lin Tan (o3.44am)
-another piece of Suemoness-

a dedication to you~

a dedication to you~

How often do guys winks at you?
In my case, its like the occurance of an eclipse-simply said: RARE

But today, TODAY - 20th of June 2006, I was blessed with one of the best gift money can't buy... Manipal isn't too bad afterall. A guy (obviously winked at me! OMG! the flicker of second is still so fresh in my memory) *beams*


You know how vulverable I am towards someone's smile?
You know how charming can a guy look when he winks,without overdoin it? (add the sideways smile...*melt* in this case, i think he was doing that too!! OK, i might be hallucinating)

Formula to Sulin's happiness:
the right amount of smile (preferably with dimples)
+
the right angle
+
the right magnitude of winks
=
Sulin FAINTS~


I feel so happy! The feeling of indescribable contentment shall feed my emotions for the rest of today! This is 2nd time in a row i feel so good, another occasion: refer to blog dated 7th of June. Not that the guy is so special in anyway at all. Neither he is my crush (well, maybe i can consider him now one, LOLZ!) ^-^

Anyways, im currently hypnotised by this song:
Ai Shang Yi Ge Bu Hui Jia Di Ren
-my childhood song... very nostalgic~

this song and this 100th post of mine, I dedicate to the person who made my day...

Nocturnal No More

Nocturnal No More

Apparently,

"Procrastination is a Thief of Time"
&
"Turning Over a New leaf"
&
"Resolution"

never apply for ME! Not for the past me, the present me, nor the future me. Pursuing one of the toughest, longest and sien-est career in the whole wide world! Also "half" battling + working full time getting off the hook by smart-ing my way out! I BADLY NEED DISCIPLINE!

Anyone noticed that I seldom reign the night anymore? I gave in to sleeping so easily, day and night. Im no longer animalised (opp of personified) as WomBat or Owl.
IM A DAMN SWINE OI! Oink~

In such mundane life of a medical student, days pass by in a blink of an eye ya know? Hardly got time to relax. If im not in the lecture hall listening to good old boring "essential" medical bibles or stoning at dead bodies in dissection hall, i would be sitting in front of my laptop exersicing my fingers' muscles (with mountain high of books piling in front of me and papers, notes, files everywhere on my bed, YES MY BED and floor) Everything is everywhere! wondering whether i will go missing in between those junks one day?
*tripple sigh...*

My laziness has reached such critical level that I believe the reaction is IRREVERSIBLE!!! Im so damned and cursed~ It hasnt been like dis-not from day one! I was purfectly fine in 1st block! So, when did the lazy spirits ate their way into me? HOW? A gradual thingy la! It is only natural to detect slow changes wut?... Mua started rotting since Sulin d' Great downfall in block2 (another long interesting episode of life in wonderful India) all the way till
--N--O--W--!
Prolly its juz an excuse but i find my solace by doing so and telling myself this...

Im recovering, Im catching up with the time, Im rediscovering my lost ability, Im regenerating the essence that has drained out of me... Hope it is not too late. *fingers crossed*

Fee-faa~ Germany

Fee-Faa~ Germany

94 minutes staying cope up in Sharadha's common TV room for the first time- it wasnt just the match between Germany-Polland but it was a battle between Mosquitoes and Sulin too!!!!! By the way, GERMAN rox! Last minute goal from nevuille.

Ok ok, I am just one of "those" girls (as Ndru puts it) who doesnt watch soccer (only rarely-i do for matches Man U-Liverpool or Man U- Arsenal or Man U- Chelsea, man... dont get me wrong, am not a fan of Man U), who knows nothing about football, who doesnt play football and ONLI watches soccer during World Cup. That's beacuse everybody does the same thing,no?

Anywayz, while my eyes followed the direction of the ball being kicked from one corner of the field to the other, my hands were working their way off brushing off mosquitoes in the vicnity. I even brought a repellent with me. (next time i should carry a Shieldtox or the coil!!!) Applied and Was partially concentrating. Halfway through, I gave up my effort trying to be an any-living-creatures-lover!!!! I hunt them down and practically encircled the room to exterminate them. Mosquitoes which cant seem to leave me alone even after I apply repellent, really TICKS ME OFF MAX! ARGHHH!!!! I killed 4 of them! *evil sniggers*

In conjuction of World Cup, people tend to associate everything with football.
"Minum bola, Makan bola and Tidur Bola" OMG~
Thus, I recorded down a few lame nicknames that were displayed by msn:

1)Lester-World Cup? Big enough to let everybody in the world to drink water or not?
2)Nic-Do you see Holland and France flag pg 77 Indibur Singh Neuroanatomy
3)Yuvaraj-Czech it out

Wrath

Status: FUCKING PISSED

Listening to: BACK 2 BACK Linkin Park and MARiLyN MAnSoN
(FULL BASS AND FULL VOLUME)

Target: YOU NOE WHO YOU ARE!
*IMAGINARY M16, TORPEDOES, GENERADE AIM AT HIM* Target locked from 360 degree!

TOP WISH:
1st:Lesion at the Silent area in my cerebrum (area 8, 9, 10, 11, 12) specially to have him kill! SO DAT I DONT HESITATE TO get my hand on him!

2nd:GRANT ME SHINIGAMI POWER so i can BLARDY BANKAI AT HIM HIM HIM HIM HIM HIM HIM HIM HIM!

Comments: ANYONE ELSE WANNA MESS WITH ME??? MY DOOR IS OPEN! I SHALL STRIP MY IDENTITY AS A FUCKING FEMALE AND I WILL CONFRONT YOU! CALL ME A FUCKING BITCH AND TOMBOY AND PROBLEM MAKER! I DONT GIVE A GAZILLION FUCKS!!!!!

Want to TELL ME I LOVE WAR AND I HATE PEACE! YES! HURL THOSE INSULTING DISGUSTING WORDS AT MY FACE! SHOVE EVERY KIND OF AFFRONT DOWN MY THROAT! I WILL SHIT IT OUT AND SLAM THOSE FAECES ON UR RETARDED FACE!

10 years from now! I SEE MYSELF damned with HYPERTENSION! I am walking down the lane towards MANDATORY DEATH due to my temper! MYOCARDIAL INFARCTION IS HAPPILY PREPARING A HOSEWARMING PARTY TO WELCOME ITSLEF!!!!! WONDER WHEN WILL MY ARTERIES SNAP!!!!
Thanks to lack of control on my emotions! AND infinite thanks to THOSE WHOM I ALWAYZ HAVE PROB WITH! THOSE WHO I CANT SEEM TO GET ALONG WITH! TO THOSE WHO SEEMS TO FEEL THE AURA OF MAX BITCHINESS, CURSED VIXEN OF CENTURIES RADIATING 10kilometres away from where I flaunt my STUCKED UP FACE!!!!

Last but not the least, thanks for loving me and hating me and then finally trying to DESTROY ME! ARIGATO KOZAIMAZZZ DUDESSS!!!!!!!!!! REALLY! I WISH I COULD BE A GUY SO BADLY I WANA TRY HOW IT FEELS LIKE DEALING WITH A BITCH LIKE MYSELF! IM FUCKING SERIOUS!

Result: O.K

Hotaru No Haka

Hotaru No Haka (click for review)
-traslation: Graveyard of The Fireflies
-i am speechless. Watch and feel it for yourself.
-in short: depressing, suck the happiness outta you (it is nice no matter what)
-personal rating: 9.0 / 10

Love Is All Around

*sobs sobs* i need more tissues.... more.More. MOre.MORe.MORE!!!!

Just finished tearing a bucket watching "Love Actually"

Aww~ Movies like this will never failed to remind people what magical moments are... Christmas... It is all about Love..., isn't it? What more? Hugh Grant, Colin Firth, Keira Knightley all in ONE MOVIE???

Love is all around...
Whether or not its between husband and wife, mother and daughter, father and son,grandma and grandpa, bros and sis, boyfriends, girlfriends, best friends, old friends....

Love is love... Love can flourished and remain eternity, love can grow stronger through understandings and basically time, Love can turn into hatred and It is love that has lost its way... Love arises even before birth, Love changes from one form to another, Love ITSELF is easy to capture but hard to let go, infact we never do... Love is just a curse if you prefer to put it that way! Ponder upon this: everything we do, we DO it with the name of love... Betrayal Vs. Faith, Love itself Vs. Hate, Jealousy Vs. Sincerity Not necessarily for that particular person you love, but it is still love when we show the world the ugly side of us. Because you do it for someone else you love. Or we do it for ourselves because we love ourselves...

Airport... Isn't just a place for us to board a plane and fly to the destination and to achieve our goal. Is it not just about studies neither is it about business trip, nor vacations. If you look deeper... we shall see this is one place where love is freed from human's egoism, human's pride, human's wrath. This is the place where love wins it all! Where love conquers! Love flourished... LOVE IS RELEASED and weigh heavier in the atmosphere....

A dad, in a daughter's eye-someone who can never care less about portraying sentiments and only WORK WORK WORK 24/7... will know a definition of a dad's love in the airport if not anywhere else... The moment when she's about to take off into the departure gate...

A friend, whom you think are your lifetime competitor, everyday annoyance, hard to deal and full of obligation services... This is the moment when that particular friend- who is ready to fly off, leaving you to a far far away land. For once you've stand on the space of intermission of a goodbye moment and actually the instance of seeing her walking off... Love is defined...

I doubt all of us see much of hatred and greed at the arrival scene in the airport....

So guys and girls, all my lovely friends! Tell to the people you love that you LOVE THEM! It is true gesture is everything one can do to show a person you love him/her. But when you find no way of doing so, there is always WORDS... SPEECH... And it means alot more when a gesture comes along with the verbal expression of LOVE!

SO HERE I AM: I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!! (*sweat* would be too long a list if i were to adress each and everyone by name) will tell you guys personally and i start by telling:
I love you, Su-Lin....

*yawns.. im getting bored.... *

Siren

*Siren rings* Sulin under emo attack again...

Susu's brain: OMG! *Sulin talks to herself* GIVE URSELF A BREAK LAR! PLEASE!
Susu's heart: Can't be helped! Fucking resistance against random sad thoughts is too weak.

Random Encounter

Random Encounter

Strolling back from Manipal Bakery... train of thoughts were storming across my brain...
Musing at incidence after incidence that took place despite such short period of time...

Tskk tskk tskk.... Didnt realise that I was staring at both my proceeding feet all the while, and only to look up when crossing the busy road and overtaking passerbys... Across the street... still in deep in thoughts, I look up least expecting my vision to be filled with such beautiful sight on the creation of God... NO! I am not talking about cow dung here! Thhhfff~

A small girl around the age of 4 who was resting on her daddy's arm present me one of the sweetest and innocent smile I've seen... Little did I notice she has been observing me from far... *giggles* Wonder what was she thinking then... Immediately after that, I felt a glow from the corner of my heart... The familiar sensation arised... warming me from within inside out, penetrating the chilly evening surrounding me... She waved too.... By then, I was already cheered up! Of course I return her the best smile I could manage while I gave her a slight gesture to acknowledge her.

I smiled at a stranger today... A stranger who make me feel that theres still love left in the realm of strangers...

Without thinking further, I distorted my expression to tease her from about 500m away... Hehe, cute girl! She turned away looking so shy... Soon, she was facing me again... *smiled again showing her still developing set of teeth* Coincidentally, the three of us was heading the same direction. All along I was mimicking her while she was smiling away. Predicaments felt like the most nonsensical subject on Earth, ya know? Finally, I overtook them, her dad turn over and I smiled, trying my best not to look stupid, I coughed a "Hi" to the girl... Wanted to add a few more compliments but the thought of being labelled as weird was more prominent.

Anyways, thats about it...

Life is simple yet complicated huh?

Here's something to look at :

TIME Best Photos of the Year of 2005 (click)

Signing off... (My Heart Will Go On- Celine Dion)
Only Love,
Su-Lin, Tan 18:31

...my dearest angel & deviL...

...my dearest angel & deviL...

*sigh* (what am i sighing for! scratches sides of head)

I ended up blogging again... Anyways, am not going to get into emotional ruckus now...

IM SOO WONDERFULLY HAPPY! I am over the moon and beyond the Milky Way~ I'M SOOO Exhilarated! Expect the unexpected! As always...

I, saya, wo, wa, watashi, yeneke am going to take this opportunity to CONGRATULATE my dearest dearest dearest (repeat till outta breath) OK! ONE LAST EFFORT! """DEAREST""" friend-Shan!!!! :

CONGRATULATIONSSS!!!!!!

*jumps around in circle while punching imaginary pom pom in the air*
Who said 06/06/06 is an omen? Whatever it is, I dont give 2 shits about that now. I aint got time to think when the world's gonna come to an end because it never really matter! I live for the moment! Dance like there's nobody is watching, live like there is no tomorrow coming! YEAH!

Anyways, enough craps! Im so touched... Being an emotional soul... I can't help but started tearing... T.T huhuhu~ This is happening?!! It feels surreal... Because I never thought he will crashed down your fort so soon! Sailen... *2 thumbs up for ya* *evil grins and nudges sailen virtually* Eh, you quite smart eh for choosing such easy to remember date so that you dont forget the anniversary? ^-^ Love you lots for ending her agony of being called a tomboy! wtf.. kidding kidding. So, the end of singlehood after having to shield it for your 19 years of life... Gurl, u sud see my moon eyed smile now! DAMN!

I am nobody but i'm gonna give u guys my blessings! I wish the both of you the best of everything. I will pray for gracious Sailen and Shan's generations after generations, shan u gotta be ready ya noe! Lolz! P/s: im expecting your prayers back k. I dont wanna be left out! *winks winks hintssss*
Really, when I read your reply, I was beyond words.... I was least expecting that piece of marvellous news... I wish I was back in Malaysia right now. So i can hug u tightly and shatter all the bones in your body.

An experience to walk... A walk to remember... Rememberance to fill up the still empty pages of your life....

God bless Angel and Devil....
*much hugs and kisses* I am SO FUCKING ECSTATIC!!!!!



:: Pee-ka-boo! AngeL and yet to be revealed-d' deViL ::

yet.. another neurofurry...

yet.. another neurofurry!!!!

OH MY FUCK GOD!

WAT da fuck do u called an individual who are fucking persistent???
Situations have changed from the gloomy saddening parting scene into brain-racking highly voted and top most unforgivable level of annoyance!!!! I am so exhausted having to pull together every strings of tolerance and patience in me! CANT U FUCKING SEE IT??? Im fucking tired and worn out having to untangle the already complicated knots and mesh created by the both of us!

Please save ur sympathetic two pails worth of tears stories to yourself! Aint gaining my conscience nor am i gonna soften my heart anytime soon! You are making a fucking huge mistake messing around like this. Leave now or DIE . Leave now or you will never have my forgiveness later. Im serious. You are really testing with the tiny bits of sanity i have left in me! One more pursue, and u commit the most unforgivable emotional felony!

The more determined you are to find out an answer which was never existed, the higer MY determination shall soar to make U FALL!! I will personallly pin U FLAT on the ground and let you taste the bitterness of my cruelty! TO SEE U regret and make you suffer the punishment worse then hell has to offer over the centuries! GREAT! Just simply perfect! You have released the merciless monster in me! Flickers of anger is changing to flames of inferno dude! And it is progressing faster than you can ever imagine!

I am all ready with my 100 folds magnitude of severe torments to deal with u! i am prepared! come forward! i will raise my sword! move one step closer and u will have the edge of my blade gliding smooothly upon your skin. Try speaking for with no mercy the tip shall penetrate layers of your flesh! and finally i will leave nasty scars on the core of ur bone as a reminder for u not to cross the limit! I SWEAR i will see thru ur defeaT! A kamikaze fighther I am! Either u die or we both do!

Being such a pushy without pussy! Go-figure u lowest level pest!
I am at a lost of words to describe u!

Look at how u are behaving! Behaving like a fucking cheapskeate! OH DAMN! DUN TELL ME U ARE DOING ALL DIS BECOZ OF ME! YES? SO WAT DA FUCKING GREAT IS DAT??? TELL ME????? FUCK U AND FUCK OFF!!!!!