Today....

Today.....

I almost missed exam at 2pm today!! Deeply in sleep... i was dreaming too but i was awaken with shock that my dream went *poof* along with my consiousness at 1.50pm! -.-" Thanks adik...

Supremo ball. WTH? so many of my batch mates are pulling out?!
So, the question is, Is it because of Unis exam -OR- DATELESS???

Btw, these ppl here are lack of publicity ler...
I see no posters, no intensive peep talk to further encourage participations and i see NO EXCITEMENT!!!!
Blah~ maybe, im too entertainment orientated. But.. but... its one day after block exam and 3 more weeks into Unis onli mah~!
After the hooha that lasted 15 minutes in the lecture hall, my mind travelled back in time to ICPU prom... and... *sigh* paham paham sajelar.... I hate to feel emo k! but my resistance towards this kinda sentiment seems to be extremely vulnerable. Vision blurred from Upadiya's ugly drawing on the board... while that ass's image gained its vividness!

btw, im very discouraged by all the negative feedback from my kawan-kawan seperjuangan...

lastly, i hate the musky atmosphere surrounding the air in my room now... I hate moistured bed sheet, clothes, and smelly damp-y environment. Tempted to blast my air cond but im feeling too cold!

"What am i to do? I hate my mind when it goes wandering in the realm of memories...."

*closes eyelids..... and breathe in cupful of slightly less fresher air, koff-koff-* I STILL HATE the odour!

and i mourn for tao kua too... *sob sob.... waves...* Cheer up dude... theres alwayz skype and msn...onli lack of physical-nesssss.... -.-"

A short story of Mini

A short story of Mini...


I juz killed an ant. A black one. A BIG one. In my toilet.

I drowned the poor fella with bubble of Dove's soap. (speaking of which, i thought Dove's product was supposed to be pH neutral?)

I tried wiping it out (letme giv it a name-"Mini"), yeah, wiping Mini out yesterday by attempting to drain out through the hole on the floor (dunno wats it called). It went vanishing after i sloshed a bucket of water. -succesful- I see no trace of tentacles crawling back from the hole. AHA! Sneaky sneaky fella! Woke up today morning and saw it!!!! Relaxing on my red floor tiles!

Ignorance is a bliss. I didnt wanna kill it the 2nd time. (one reason, i still found my love for animals or insects or living creature still intact. Secondly, i feel disgusted! MINI is too huge! i wouldnt wanna imagine how it will look like after I squash it FLAT! i dont want all its internal organs to ooze out and distort it's body. If it was as tiny as those normal annoying red ants with black ass, it would have die-ed long AGO!) Hoping Mini would have understood to pack up and leave my toilet/room asap!

Good enough, I came back from class seeing that I was the only creature in my room. At the back of the head, you wouldnt know how thankful was I. But................

NOooooooo! Mini made its grand show-up when I entered the toilet when nature called! Man! I was furious! Lil did i know it was camping somewhere near the S-bend pipe of the toilet bowl! Ishhh~~~ Fine, I passed the attempt to have it destroyed then. However I woke up at 12am having my beast instinct taken over me!Temptation was too strong for me to anhilhate Mini....
Aih~ who ask you to hang around for too long...? I gave you a few chances yo...

:: Ants partying. Mini looks like one of them... T.T ::

Anywayz, RIP Mini...
I actually feel remorse over it! -.-"

< Facts

Something different from me and my usual ranting. Have fun and enjoy!
Article courtesy of JH Lim.

If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days, you would have
produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee.

A pig's orgasm lasts for 30 minutes. (In my next life I want to
be a pig!)

Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour.
(Still not over that pig thing!)

Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for
pleasure. (Is that why Flipper was always smiling? And, why
isn't the pig included here?)

The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue. (Hmmmmm.....)

The ant can lift 50 times its own weight, can pull 30 times its
own weight and always falls over on its right side when
intoxicated. From drinking little bottles of...?) (Did the
gov't pay for this research??)

Polar bears are left handed. (I'm sure glad somebody found that
out!)

A cockroach will live nine days without it's head, before it
starves to death. ( So my ex-husband WAS a cockroach after
all!)

The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is
attached to its body. The female initiates sex by ripping the
male's head off. ("Honey, I'm home! What the....")

Some lions mate over 50 times a day. (In my next life I still
want to be a pig... quality over quantity!)

Butterflies taste with their feet.
(hmmm...chocolate...doh!...not chocolate, not chocolate! BAD
DOG!)

An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain. (I know some people
like that.)

Remember, when someone annoys you, it takes 42 muscles in your
face to frown. BUT, it only takes 4 muscles to extend your arm
and smack the jerk upside the head.

Ming's Bfday~

Note: I juz cant upload any freaking pics for this particular blog. I gave up after tryin for two days continuously. its even boring now!

AIKS! This entry is going to shout: damn BORING!!!! (im serious)
The usual normal mundane e-ver-y-day life bloggging style.

"From dis time to another time along with the itenaries"

Thus, this is a warning from sulin.

I juz came out from shower! Im SUPER DUPER clean now! Thanks to Kizzy who has been bugging me to shower since 2 hrs before she even entered her bathroom! lolz. Well, my sugar surge was prolonged and high in magnitude! I was hyped up for sometime. Thuff~ wat to do? so many unhappy and unnessary events had to come tagging along recently.

Basically im happy at this moment! It has been quite some time, I feel so great for such continuous period of time. Stimulation of laughters was working pretty smoothly for me today. I cackled for the stupidest thing on earth! sigh~ (dis is wat medicine course does to me) Oh before dat, Congratulations to Liutenant Jia Hong for the superb game performed today! U are gonna "sapu" the title for the Supremo game Champion in no time! Make sure u do! Im betting my whole "san ka" on you dei! LOLZ! oh oh~ not forgetting lembu and sotong oso!

After the game, all of us rushed back, got ready then attended Ming's surprise birthday party. Am proud I made a nice combination of outing outfits today! Always keeping track so that I don't repeat what wear before while try to mismatch everything I have. Since my wardrobe over here has limited stock, I had to crack my head sometimes.

TA-DA-! Today's black top wif the nice hawai-ish flowery two-toned pink skirt with pink earrings as my accessories was put together and they are juz simply pretty! *beam wif proudnezz*

However much kawaii or pretty or sexy (perasan-ness) I see myself in any outfit, I ended up being a clumsy soul which makes me juz the total opposite of eveything I have mentioned. T.T Gawd~ I had to hit myself on one metal part of the "Oto" wifey and I were boarding! Now blue black even green purplish! I don't know! And its damn painful! EEOooouuWWWww!

Reached Ozone (underground destination of the top secret party in which there is free flow of pool game and bowling!), shouted surprise MING, sang "Happy birthday to MING" repeatedly, wish Ming happy birthday, and ya-da ya-da ya-da~ Am going to talk about what I feel are interesting only lar ok?

p/s: missed Germany-Sweden game today! AGRH! 2-0, both goals from 21 years old dude-PODOLSKI. Huhuhu~ Germany.... WeeeHeeeee! They made it through again!

1st event: ke-muhibah-an! Never gotten such huge crowd from batch 17 consisting of friends of different colour as such! Good job Korean! *thumbs up*

2nd event: sotong puji me! when lar those bunch of baboons ever wanna pass a copliment to me? All they ever did was annoy me to tahap max! Mentang-mentang lar im a lesser female.

3rd event:
ANSON DANCED??
ANSON REALLY DANCED!
ANSON REALLY DANCED WITH STYLE!
ANSON REALLY DANCE WITH STYLE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DANCE FLOOR ALONE!
In sort-he again, made his fans oogles and goes "ooo, wahhh~" (including me! LOLZ) but, I didnt oogle, if I cud take a pic of myself, my face wud be captured with frowns and suspicious eyes!) MAN! it was an IMPRESSIVE dance if you have known anson for almost 2 years and him not showing ANY sign at all he cud even move his body along with music! I cant believe he was actually being so modest! Ngiam Choon Jin! Argh! Now u sing on the court, at the pool table, now u even sing on the dance floor! wat else are u hidding! Common! "sai lang" ur skills! Dont give us-especially mel and I heart attack all the time. Gotta be with you for the next 5 years wei! But newayz, realli, credits go to you. *sweat* too bad I was too buzy debating with myself whether I was actually dreaming or drunk watching him moved that I didnt take a pic of him showing off! LOLZ! Peribahasa: diam diam ubi berisi oh~

Slot: shien yee (currently known as Tasik ShienYee-self proclaimed during Dy's pretence golf game, wtf) also danced! not bad not bad! even Steven Tan! PohHock usual lar, perform his break dance. *thuff... showing off! bluek~

4th event: Bowling was fun! Pool became sucky! Wifey was so cute having to learn her first ever bowling lesson! Cuter still when her face had the WORD: APPALLED written across whenever she failed to send the 8 kg ball to the centre of the end of the lane! Gutter! Gutter all the way! Aiya, first time, learning like dat lar. Obviously she got the hang of it pretty fast! almost strike k! Another alcoholic target. sigh~ These ppl owe their liver big time! She was hogging a bottle of HUGE SIZE BEER BOTTLE ALL TO HERSELF!

5th event: Sewdo was extraordinary shy and diam diam today. Usual gua. Hahah! Faster master shuffling wei!

6th event: Went over to Edge around 11.20pm. Curfew at 12.ooam. I was sooo phreaking ecstaci-fied having to see bebe & sujaina and the rest of my fella friends from btch 16 after so so so so so so so long! They have been locking themselves up for 2 weeks due to block exam! Both naveen/navin were behaving really cute too! Nah~ Its juz a normal indication that they have been downing beer for the day instead of water comsumption. Hussain chopped his hair, god noes why. maybe has a new resolution that is to start over again! *ehem*

Alas, I had to ass outta that place with kissy at 5 minutes before 12! (oh, btw u dancing queen, never knew u cud shake ur bootie like dat!, Yummyzz ^-^)

i am dissapointed because i still find love within that much of hatred....
why do i even bother...?
why do i even care...?

"Reflections"

"Reflections"

will the world be a better place without me...?

people i love are hurt along the way...,
i witness the agony with my own vision.
i feel the stab too
either half or double the ache, i know not...,

Ironically it was me who hurt them.
funny how i was the source of their emotional turbulence.
eventually contributed to a devastatingly high scores
outnumbering individuals who can still smile genuinely at me.

Regardless of what I do.
I try too hard sometimes, to set everything in equilibrium.
And I am being too hard on myself.
sorry never sizzles the fire of hatred.
onli guilt serves the purpose of living.

i please and i displease,
i love and hate,
i come and leave,
i bulid and i demolish,
i horrify and i satisfy,
i am a friend and i am a foe.

i am impatient but i withstand...

i am happy and i am gloomy...
i tear and I smile.

i am scared and i am strong.
i fear and i dont doubt
i care and i am nasty

i am sulin and i am not myself
i am her...
Her...the person i see in the mirror everyday
downside up, outside in
the world is the actual reflection.
the surreal is the real.
what i see is what she dreams

I only survive thinking i was not a bogus
I live in between two mirrors...
in which i see many hers...
each one think the rest are images

Strangely...,
I am "ME" for every she....

note: as kai puts it- the title is pun intended.

Only Love,
Su-Lin Tan (o3.44am)
-another piece of Suemoness-

a dedication to you~

a dedication to you~

How often do guys winks at you?
In my case, its like the occurance of an eclipse-simply said: RARE

But today, TODAY - 20th of June 2006, I was blessed with one of the best gift money can't buy... Manipal isn't too bad afterall. A guy (obviously winked at me! OMG! the flicker of second is still so fresh in my memory) *beams*


You know how vulverable I am towards someone's smile?
You know how charming can a guy look when he winks,without overdoin it? (add the sideways smile...*melt* in this case, i think he was doing that too!! OK, i might be hallucinating)

Formula to Sulin's happiness:
the right amount of smile (preferably with dimples)
+
the right angle
+
the right magnitude of winks
=
Sulin FAINTS~


I feel so happy! The feeling of indescribable contentment shall feed my emotions for the rest of today! This is 2nd time in a row i feel so good, another occasion: refer to blog dated 7th of June. Not that the guy is so special in anyway at all. Neither he is my crush (well, maybe i can consider him now one, LOLZ!) ^-^

Anyways, im currently hypnotised by this song:
Ai Shang Yi Ge Bu Hui Jia Di Ren
-my childhood song... very nostalgic~

this song and this 100th post of mine, I dedicate to the person who made my day...

Nocturnal No More

Nocturnal No More

Apparently,

"Procrastination is a Thief of Time"
&
"Turning Over a New leaf"
&
"Resolution"

never apply for ME! Not for the past me, the present me, nor the future me. Pursuing one of the toughest, longest and sien-est career in the whole wide world! Also "half" battling + working full time getting off the hook by smart-ing my way out! I BADLY NEED DISCIPLINE!

Anyone noticed that I seldom reign the night anymore? I gave in to sleeping so easily, day and night. Im no longer animalised (opp of personified) as WomBat or Owl.
IM A DAMN SWINE OI! Oink~

In such mundane life of a medical student, days pass by in a blink of an eye ya know? Hardly got time to relax. If im not in the lecture hall listening to good old boring "essential" medical bibles or stoning at dead bodies in dissection hall, i would be sitting in front of my laptop exersicing my fingers' muscles (with mountain high of books piling in front of me and papers, notes, files everywhere on my bed, YES MY BED and floor) Everything is everywhere! wondering whether i will go missing in between those junks one day?
*tripple sigh...*

My laziness has reached such critical level that I believe the reaction is IRREVERSIBLE!!! Im so damned and cursed~ It hasnt been like dis-not from day one! I was purfectly fine in 1st block! So, when did the lazy spirits ate their way into me? HOW? A gradual thingy la! It is only natural to detect slow changes wut?... Mua started rotting since Sulin d' Great downfall in block2 (another long interesting episode of life in wonderful India) all the way till
--N--O--W--!
Prolly its juz an excuse but i find my solace by doing so and telling myself this...

Im recovering, Im catching up with the time, Im rediscovering my lost ability, Im regenerating the essence that has drained out of me... Hope it is not too late. *fingers crossed*