wonders...

if it is possible to love two person at the same time?
*continues wondering*

i suppose one will fade off as time passes...

two days ago, i had a random conversation with shan.
we both agreed that love is just a fraction of life, and it is NOT the core of life itself as oppose to many's beliefs.

anyone can get married, start a journey together in life, produce babies like there is no tomorrow, work their buffalo's asses off to support the future family and yada.. yada.. yada... boring stuff. *yawns*

now, what interest me is, if there is a point of life when you cheat on your other half. Be it emotionally/physically. Then what?

we are not saying that this cheating element is fixed as part of the marriage plan a married couple signed up for.
however we are saying that if it arrives, it just comes tumbling down and collapses anyone's strong will, no?

whether it is acceptable in this society? i highly doubt it.
but many countries practise such polygamy gangbang shit... ROFL!
for example: maldives.
hrrmmmmm...

shan says emotional cheating is worse than physical cheats.
i reckon the other way around.

after much discussion, we finally made a conclusion saying that guys CANNOT tolerate physical cheating from the gf/spouses. *cough-ego-cough*
whereas the girls CANNOT accept emotional cheating in addition to physical cheating. LOL!

but now my question is:
possible to love two person at the same time when you are already attached?

Pimples Pandemic

i have an obsession to press and burst ripened pimples.
seeing the tip of the pimples anywhere on anyone's face creates this unfathomable irk from the inside out of me.

so, my poor youngest bro became a victim of my obsession.
spent an hour clearing the pimples.
alot of tears and blood were shed... HAHAHA!!!


:: the blood and tissues wasted... ::


:: the result of his sister's obsession..::

Only love <3
Dr. Sexy Tan (2230)

sleep or no sleep

I had a dream...
as early as today morning...

For the past one week, i have had difficulty in sleeping... I find myself staying awake most of the night past 3am. It sucks because i get really floaty the next day.

So, same thing happened today morning. I was trying hard to sleep since 4am but ended up rolling and turning on the bed and pillow. My mind seems to be playing tricks on me.

"how dare you trick your master?!" implored i, *sweat*

It formed many images that my eyes managed to captured throughout my life and then projected back onto the back of my closed eyes when i was trying to get a friggin rest.

Instead of dozing off, i ended up smiling when sweet images reeled past... and of course a mixture of thousand and one emotions as myriad of images formed and evaporated...

*sigh...*

in short: in insomniac ok!

anyways, the purpose (there is always a purpose blogging since i am not a regular anymore)
after a certain level of hardship of attempts to fall asleep, i managed to swim to dreamland.

only for bi to visit me in the dream. HOOORAY!
but...
it wasn't a nice pleasant dream.
because he freaking left me for another girl!!!! Dumped me!

T___T sadnyerr.....

oh yes... i remember who is the girl. and the girl has boyfriend too. in which she left him as well.
i couldn't bring myself to get back at jiahong even by trying to play along with the girl's ex boyfriend. how sucky.

and then i woke up just in time to dream past the point where it explains that jiahong was being a bastard because of charm gone wrong!

so WTF! this is just dumb!

Only love <3
insomniac chicken 12.38pm

lying on my tummy (abdomen as we medical freaks call it), i can hear the seconds ticking by and the familiar mysterious throbbing thuds within my eardrum that used to annoy me alot when i was a kid trying to sleep...

yeah uhuh, it just reflects how bored i am...
Raya holiday sprinted away too fast. Baby had been here for a month and now he has left for Manipal once again.

*long sigh...*

it feels weird to blog nowadays. Probably, i have moved on, away from the blogging trend...
either im outdated, not bothered, has a new way of channeling anger aka boy friend, too busy OR too obsessed with facebook (just read an article about internet addiction in CLEO magazine, uhuh... that's me *points at self*) Even my youngest bro started blogging secretly and i found out his address by chance!

*evil laughter*

Monday is to be anticipated...
The terror of the year!

Terrorist:
MVK (a hideous professor who can be put side to side to a Chimera) is back from his long hideout. He is seen heaving a M16 and a huge bazooka with him while other armors are not recognizable.

Victim:
The white mices wearing a terror look with a splash of whitening effect on their faces carrying a holy "bibble", praying and reciting the paragraphs of the holy words in the highest hope to escape the torture and disaster!

*double long sigh....*

and i'm already missing him
*tripple long sigh...*

Only love <3

sense of déjà vu ...

I have finally ALMOST reached the end of the rollercoaster journey of medical second year's University examination.

*phewww~*

While studying, for pharmac paper to be precise, I decided to take a break with the phone camera after being dipped in a deja vu sensation. Thought it would be fun to capture the flash. =P


:: this is the exact scene of my déjà vu ... ::

I was once a single Lingham

I drop by to say a few things. =)

Announcing a good example life of a blogger once she is occupied *winks*. Officially, i am no more an active member of blogger. Blame him *points finger at jimmy bear*

And only as lately as today I realised blogging business is meant for singles! Oooo~ Singles who are spared with a lot a lot of extra free time. Yep, I am referring to myself 2months back. Recalling how it used to be having the excess handful of minutes and hours around, not knowing what i cud do with them.

But somehow, i managed to shove those free moments by camping in front of the laptop to be emotional about life, to think about the unthinkable, and to worry about the world. Haha.
Nowadays he is like my blog page now. A blog space with feelings and is able to advise, to comments and to give me a few pieces of his mind when Im at fault. *sulk*

I speak, I share, I giggle, I laugh, I gossip, I complain, I cry, I wail and I express myself all to him. Sigh~ Wonder when is he gonna get tired of such a whinner like me. XD Sounds pretty good eh! And Im also glad im not shy singing/ croaking in front of him. =D Well, thats what every "u-know" does, isnt it?

I just watched the latest episode of desperate housewives. I am too emotionally attached to the series that I am actually feeling upset for Susan Meyer when she has to choose between Mike and Ian. My eyes were so wet by the time Ian decided to walk away from Susan's life after a she made the hardest choice in her life to leave Mike, that is of course due to a certain issue. Huhu~ She loves them both, but she loves Mike a lil more... Awww~ *wipes tears off with a hanky*

Anwayz, lost my mood to continue blogging. Bearbear is back from bsb! Woots!
And oh yeah, i sucessfully whipped up a pot of green bean tong sui unburnt yesterday night! Kudos to me! ^^

d' sky is cloudy today...

Here I am blogging again after a considerably long Hiatus. >.< style="font-style: italic;">Gengkai! Utsav (an anual big hit event which involves almost every resident on this lil intellectual hill top-Manipal) is just around the corner. *nods..nods...*
One more turn at the junction and we will reach there! Fck! Im so lame......... T.T

Since I'm in the 2nd senior batch after the lazy bum bum pig of btch 16, Tan and I are entrusted with piles and piles of paperwork, stage-work, "caht hai"-work (direct traslation: polish shoe in cantonese) and much kpc-work, we almost ended up being diagnosed with piles. FWT.

Basically, what I'm trying to say is: I AM FREAKING BUZZZZZZZZYYYYYYYYY!!!
*sad melancholy violin tune playing in the background*

There goes my whole of next week! Every single one who isn't sooo itchy-backside is gonna have HALF A DAY CLASS, whereas I have to be working my arse and piles off from 8am till 12am!!!! WTF!!!!!! *screams*

And ever since the day I was bestowed upon this infamous task as the CORE volunteer for Utsav, I have been feeling a lil not myself...Because I miss participating in events which require alot of practising for which I cannot sacrifice much time to dem... Events like the Vocal Hindi song with my group and even dancing... U know..., not being perasan lar, but being the sole Chinese on stage proudly serenading the Tempe crowd with their Bollywood song. Wudn't you feel good?

As I was watching those dancers practising today, I felt a stab in my heart... I wish I was one of them... *sigh*

To top it all of, I have to cabut my lower left wisdom tooth out! (the 3rd molar to be more specific) WHY? Because it is erupting in such a WRONG position! Threatening to collide and crash down the rest of my beautifully lined dental! Plus, the dentist found a n early stage of carries on my right 2nd Molar! URGH! How can I be so "sui"!

Enough of complaints.

P/s: I am growing fat too! My tummy can bounce slightly now! *grotesque! *

T.T
WAILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLSssssssssssssssssssss~ I dont want to grow fat!

Boo!

One of the rare-st night I am awake but I am not playing Gunbound or doing anything insignificant.

I am S-T-U-D-Y-I-N-G!

Nyek~ Dont bother me. Wanna jot down.

Love

Ming told Su kia that one has to love his/her bike/scooter/car. (scooter for me lar basically)

Since my scooter is Indianishly dirti-fied, I decided to bathe it la. Not bathe with it, you silly! Took me about 20 minutes la.
1st i soaped. then I watered. finally I wiped la.
But then hor, it is still wet. Wait for the wind to dry it la.

Wei... Im showing affection to IT ok.

Now, it is brand new, shiny, sparkly, bubbly, bouncy, spicy, masala-ey. watever lar.
Nice smwell oso.

Sienzzzz lalalalalalalala!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My name in Japanese....

Onamae wa?

Just a plain Su Lin, I'm known as:
石丸 Ishimaru (round stone) 弓美 Yumi (beautiful bow, as in bow and arrow).

-wtf- How contradictory can this be? Round stone Vs Pointy Arrow!?

With the almighty "-", (Su - Lin) which I prioritize as much as my pride, it becomes:
松尾 Matsuo (tail of a pine tree) 歩 Ayumi (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way).

-see the difference in the meaning a punctuation can made? -
- at least it carries a subtler meaning to my name -

Let's see what becomes of me without the space and "-"
I am still a Matsuo Ayumi!!!! ^^,

With my last name aka Tan:
秋本 Akimoto (autumn book) 歩 Ayumi (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way).

-now where the heck does my tail of a pine tree disappeared?-
OH! i know, the pine tree was chopped down and processed into an autumn book!
WTF! WTF! WTF!

Try it ler: http://rumandmonkey.com/widgets/toys/namegen/969/

Fake Post

Weather has been behaving really weird lately...

Instead of feeling humid and sweaty, I am actually feeling cold...

Feeling the chill at night when the fan is static.

Going to the bathroom and to be in contact with the water thats coming out from the tap, in the wee morning is a NO-NO!

I am astonished! This is suppose to be peak Summer in Manipal!!!

Hey~ Mr. Weather! Are you getting your records wrong? Memories Short Circuited?

One year back, I seriously do not remember complaining about the chill throughout the summer. Well, my AC was screwed up back then...(thats not a reason, because i dont even have an AC now..) And I was practically roasting myself whenever I was in my ex-room. Plus, i complaint real alot and even got an entry cursing the weather....

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or did i......................................................?

I think it is me who is suffering from Amnesia.

*whispers*

"Eh susu, its winter in the northern part of india dei!!!" >.<

Coz i juz checked my previous entries. Peak summer is suppose to be in march. LOLZ! Speaking of which, I have been in India for one-FREAKING-FUCKING-year.

Talk about astonishment-LAH! GAGA!

But since ive written so much, i'll post this anyways-LAH.

So enjoy cursing me-LAH! -MOU LIU-!

Pain has an element of blank;
It cannot recollect
When it began, or if there were
A day when it was not.

It has no future but itself,
Its infinite realms contain Its past,
enlightened to perceive
New periods of pain.

(i feel so cold now... wonder whether he is somewhere around...)

~Nice~

I am thankful that life has brought me till today...
Because today is exceptionally tranquil...
The ripples in the air... not the slightest turbulence...
The flow of my emotions did not show any sign of turbity...

*take in a full cup of air* WHOAAAA!

Love,
Sulin Tan (23.02) ^^

tSUtSUgamushi

i somehow find this particular name very interesting :

TSUTSUGAMUSHI!

probably it sounds like SuSu. So, instead of spelling it S-U-S-U, now it can be tsu-tsu!

By the way, it is a name of a bug of a deadly disease. Thus, if you are lucky enough to catch this bug, it would be cool to say,
"Hey, dude, I've got tsutsugamushi in me." (with an ummph while saying it)
Rather then sounding like a sick person, now you sound like some martial art master or kungfu sifu who fire a power as tremendous as double TSUnami+GAruda+SHInigami! WTF!?