Reminiscence...

Reminiscence...

If Only....

he isnt this bull headed...
he isnt such an ignorant...
he isnt a bastard in handling friends...
he isnt a pain in the ass now...
he isnt such a loser and a kiasu...

he hasnt had a dispute with me...
he hasnt been a weirdo...
he HASNT been a pain in the arse, actually alwayz heartache...
he has been nicer to me...or anyone in this matter...

If Only...
He doesnt HATE me now...

I would have love him with all my heart...

Today, i sit down and recollect about those times...
The first day i met him...
The first time i have spoken to him...
The first smile he gave me...
The silly things he alwayz had to say...
The accents he carried...
The impressive impressions...
The only time i had breakfast, just the two of us... on his birthday almost a year back...
The time when he looked and sounded so devastated when i walked away with another...
yet he masked it well...

*sigh....*
Those times i was so confused and lost thinking about decisions...
Those times i wouldnt want to hurt him...
Those times i alwayz tried cheering him up....
Those times my heart leap when i had a glimpse of him...
Those times i feel over the moon with his presence...
Those times seeing him in action...
Those times knowingly hes around in the library...
Those short conversations...
Those teasings...
Those 1000 watt smiles...

Well.... all these are past tense now...

Because he never once recipocrated on right time...

Only Love,
Su-Lin 06