Unhealthy~

Unhealthy!

Brain felt like it is clogged with the thickened concentrated yucky gel-o~
BBbrrrrrrrrr.............................. (cold)
Why-o-why do i have to fall sick now......

GREAT! I think i can officially diagnosed myself as a
Psoriasis Patient!

"Psoriasis is an autoimmune disease affecting the skin and/or joints. In cases where it affects the skin, it produces red scaling elevated plaques commonly on the elbows and knees. It may be more extensive or even universal (psoriatic erythroderma). The fingernails and toenails are often affected (psoriatic nail dystrophy). Some patients develop psoriatic arthritis, particularly involving the fingers ("sausage fingers") or spine. About 2-3% of the population suffers from this disease. It is non-contagious, aggravated by stress (physical or emotional), may produce depression and loss of self-esteem, affects all ages, affects the sexes equally and is a challenge to treat."

Had a tiny chunk of meat extracted out a few weeeks back for biopsy but the smart asses in india came up with inconclusive diagnostic! WTF! NOW they need a BIGGER chunk from me! Think im mad to donate slices of my skin to the hospital in order for them to give chances to the intern to learn isit??? Once enuf lar! damn donkey-fiedd!!!! However, they manage to scrape a lil bit of my skin to check for fungal infections... Alas... Negative result too....
Kill ME LAR! So much of health prob! Thank God im not gifted with the lethal -Lesch Nyan Syndrome in which im self mutilated. (continuosly biting nails,or scrathcing till i BLEED BLEED BLEED!!!!)

Susu Masam~

musim hujan dah mula...
cuaca entah macam ape...
kejap mendung kejap panas terik...nak jadi gila semua budak-budak medic kat Manipal... termasuk aku-jadi mangsa pesakit demam tak pasal pasal!

wah~ its harder den i thought to blog in bm! urghh~ probably brain has became rusty... mentang-mentang lar dah lame menghuni kat tempat setinggan nie! Ishh~ Pertuturan semakin hari semakin reput. wtf! Terutamanya dialek yang dipakai oleh ngan slang orang hitam tak berotak!

Something out of ordinary took place in the campus today. Our dearest lecturer- Ganesh Kumar called for attendance today by LITERALLY PRONOUNCING our names! Obviously he did sound funny but i wouldnt wanna ask for more. I was quite surprised hearing him called Justin... Prakash... and so on... TEN Su-Lin. Huhuhu! Saju once called me TEN!??? I was like wtf? My reaction was pretty slow as I'm the top groggy and sleepy student in class, i thought she might have been calling out for roll num 10. while having her staring at my direction for at least 1minute, trust me it was quite funny scene. (watever it is,anyone who was or is taught by Ganesh Kumar shall noe why im about to label him cute! LOLZ) *giggles again*
Gosh.. i miss those times when lecturers wud be calling out for our names. Somehow, I feel proud ya noe. It has been a long time and today... Ganesh Kumar did a miracle! U deserve a sincere salutation from me for making such dedicated attempt!

Note: Khinzir, theres nutin ikan-ish going on... Dun be so paranoid!

apparently, life seems happier these days... Wonder why... *giggles*

Untitled~

Untitled~

# the moon is very beautiful tonight....



#suemoness


#i feel the familiar old scent

#love love love love love love love love love love (each one for one person)



#miss pkn, 8wonders, shakespearean farm animal

pre-shakespearean animal farm..

eng 3u, the beginning of everything ...

grasshead's birthday.. cafeteria...

the first and last trip together... genting





the guys..

us girls..
graduation. porky and fishy MIA


fellowship of the feet... *waves goodbye* hyundai's departure...

Finally~ the last pic together (camera lady)...


sure this pic is worth looking at *winks* (XD)

Oi Mummy! ^-^

Oi Mummy ^-^

You were never my friend and will never be...
You hit me and made me believed u were a bitch...
You sent me to bed with no stories but innocence tears...
Make believe there were no fairy tales...
Astounded me with horrible actions beyond curse (or so it seemed..)

yes..., my dear mummy...
i was refering to none other but her...
you were one mean female because you were being strong...
singlehandedly u brought me up alone for the first 12 years of my life..
and comes along my two younger gila bros...

you are never a friend, not a friend and never will be
because you are simply me... apart of me...
the blood running in my veins, my cells forming my flesh, my persona moulded by you...
from the first day u gave life to me...
9 months of struggling and preserving the vulnerable sac containing me...
having your life nearly taken in the OT just because u wanted to give me a chance to see the world... You, can never be considered by friend...

u never had time to listen to my ranting but u cried wif me at night when an infant i was (dis i heard from my dad or mumy herself....)

yes, u hit me, u punished me, u sent me out of the house in the middle of the night...
but ive become the person i am today from all the tough obstacle you set up for me...
you might not showed me your devastation when you endured the wound we created...
you might not showed me the cry of a mother's tears...
thus showing me how to be the world's greatest woman...
determination...
i have been hanging on to you in so many ways apart from the emotional point of view...
we dont share gossips, neither did we tell each other "i Love you"
not even once in my life..
yet, i still love you. And now im telling you- I do love you...
well, you are one wonder woman i can never beat and i can never get jealous of... (yeah kill me if i ever get jealous. LOLZ)

hahaha! i guess my skills of writing cant put up to how i wana describe u...
u are simply a GREAT mum!!!! HUhUhUhUhU~ T.T

Humdrum

Humdrum

Nothing much lately...

Mundane routine... the word routine itself says it all...

Been a week, sleepover with papers and books, yet i havent been doing well... Things have changed, Im upset i cannot get fast grip on facts... after the very very painful death and rebirth i was set upon. Im angry for i get panicky before entering any sorts of exam nowadays... lack of confidance... I didnt use to be like this... Ironically, i didnt fear for not doing well one night before... nor am i able to absorb anything fast anymore... so, changes to better or worse, i think it is obvious~

Basically, thats about studies...

Life...
Has to go on... With or without supports from friends... funny sometimes how foe can be less dangerous... Judge, slam you down, no never listen to me...but make it an ultimate point to lend an ear to elseone. Even if they get to listen, it is alwayz, somehow, miraculously without hesitations, doubts for labelling me as the prey! the i guess its in them. Coz they told me, everyone judges... And everyone is a born adjudicator of others well and bad being.

Aha! heres the catch! Simply said, they think they know alot. And that I dont? Refinely rephrased, being fed with honey from the similar flowers doesnt mean there is 95% nutrients available... Coz i extracted the same nourishments there too. Yet, i grow looking different... They grow looking different from each other too. WTF! So, yeah go figure. I have become a bumble bee. BBuzzzz~ Now i sound like ive got piles in my anus. double WTF?

Scientifically speaking, Ive had enough of being the receptor. Hormones are forcing themselves into an unfit receptor oi~!
Technically speaking, Ive screwed up the engine. Ive yet again enter a key into the wrong vehicle. Though i dont see how it can screw up an engine. Tak kisah lar. asalkan aku yang paham.
Emotionally speaking, Ive HAD ENOUGH. Im tired... Im exhausted... Im worn out...

Dudes and Dudettes... Would u like sparing me a BREAK????!

Hohoho! Random comment: I think im gettin hotter and hotter each day ler. triple WTF! yesterday, being condemn in a life after exam and life at the beginning of a whole new block, i was bored enough to study a few of my recent pics. Result from the observation: My body is good~ SlurppP~ Been thinking that i must have looked real puffed up when the weighing machine's meter sprung from 54kg to 58.5kg... XD

Rain, rain go away... come again right away...

Rain, rain go away... come again RIGHT away...

The beginning of rainy season... *shrugs* I think i wont be liking the rain as much as i have been anticipating it... Wonder why? Wonders of Sulin.... I have been very excited about rain...

After days and nights, infinite hours and minutes living in scorching heat, having to sweat like pig myself, feeling roasted and having singed 2 inches of my poor hair.. while other people had to bear with the overpowering, chiu kap BO wafting out from sumbody's armpits into the peripheral air, FINALLY i am greeted with the first ever thunderstorm in the land of cow dung- Man-Nipple~

Wind is so pronouncely strong...! (wait, i havent heard the howling of the wind yet, so i suppose it is not too bad) Thunder booming in a distance... I can SMELL THE RAIN ! Scent of the mixture grass and earth really send me straight to the solace I have alwayz been comforted during light shower.... It is all too lovely...?

I see some contradictory ideas in my comments... Weird, as usual!
The weather just made my thoughts wander off to Goa... Its not appealing anymore, eh... Imagine the rough sea that never failed to take life from the land... Dark gloomy menancing sky hovering the once upon the bright cloudless sky... Neh~ i will not go back to Goa now even if i was paid 1000 zillion~

Lolz~

Goa~ Memories that shall be embeded in me for life....


:: one of my favourite photos taken proudly by ME! ::

Reminiscence...

Reminiscence...

If Only....

he isnt this bull headed...
he isnt such an ignorant...
he isnt a bastard in handling friends...
he isnt a pain in the ass now...
he isnt such a loser and a kiasu...

he hasnt had a dispute with me...
he hasnt been a weirdo...
he HASNT been a pain in the arse, actually alwayz heartache...
he has been nicer to me...or anyone in this matter...

If Only...
He doesnt HATE me now...

I would have love him with all my heart...

Today, i sit down and recollect about those times...
The first day i met him...
The first time i have spoken to him...
The first smile he gave me...
The silly things he alwayz had to say...
The accents he carried...
The impressive impressions...
The only time i had breakfast, just the two of us... on his birthday almost a year back...
The time when he looked and sounded so devastated when i walked away with another...
yet he masked it well...

*sigh....*
Those times i was so confused and lost thinking about decisions...
Those times i wouldnt want to hurt him...
Those times i alwayz tried cheering him up....
Those times my heart leap when i had a glimpse of him...
Those times i feel over the moon with his presence...
Those times seeing him in action...
Those times knowingly hes around in the library...
Those short conversations...
Those teasings...
Those 1000 watt smiles...

Well.... all these are past tense now...

Because he never once recipocrated on right time...

Only Love,
Su-Lin 06