Labour

everytime i read people's blogs, i get inspired to blog...
however, everytime i start typing, nothing comes out...
lack of head-finger coordination, i suppose

life has been very uneventful. doubt its ever going to be the next few months. maybe never.

*sigh.....*

currently in Obstetrics & Gynecology posting...
2 weeks ago, i had to stay overnight in hospital for 2 nights to watch LABOUR/DELIVERY!
trust me, not a great sight... for a coughsexycough lady like me.

i see myself on that labour table in say 5years time, with my overgrown two chunky thighs spread wide enough for the entire world to peep into my waheena T___T

Probably screaming and howling silently in agony. Because nobody will ever bother to empathize. And of course being the lansi and showoffwy me, i don't think i want to groan cotinuosly around the clock for 12hours and be symphatized....

i FEEL for the mothers. i FEEL for mummy! eventhough i was brought out through C-sec ler.
Still?

i dream of having family of my own someday. i want to have kids.
but how to? when watching delivery is worse then watching the horrorest horror movie?

*GASP!*

Rahool-ed

I got my menstrual today which explains my hormonal imbalance that resulted in my punctured mood the whole afternoon.

I am less pissed now. Bet its my room aroma. It calms me down. Yes it does!

My current display name on msn reads:
"let me be the first to declare dat I DISLIKE RAHUL sampah tong despite the fact dat the whole world adores him!"

To hell with those who are willing to lick his shoes clean. I don't care.
Because to me, he looks like a gorilla. Yeap, that creature with two huge nostrils!!
He probably thinks he's extremely good looking.
*barf*
I don't deny the fact that he is very good in teaching. I personally had praised him. I enjoy-ED his class. I us-ED to like him (NOT ADORE).
But i never once think he is good looking. Maybe he is charming. M...a...y...b...e....

However today, his charm barely impressed and interest me, for the curse of P.E.R.I.O.D (pun intended) in every women that arrives each month with or without warning sign holds a greater role in carving that smile in a woman.

His words were a bunch of jargons.
His demonstrations weren't in any corner of my field of sight as they were obstructed by a pair of flexed knee!
I lost him halfway through.
Imaginations were the only guidance.

He appeared more and more like a gorilla as the seconds' arm of my clock tick-tocked. Started from distortion of his two wide canal in between his two gradually shrunken cheeks. Layers and layers of frowns creases across his forehead. Two flappy ears enlarged even more. Lastly, I swear i saw coarse hairs growing out of his flesh...

I found a picture of moi boy imitating a RAHUL. oops, i mean GORILLA.




:: i caught him red-jacketed before he embarked the swan boat ::

:: swan, sunset, lake and the both of us... (18/01/2008) ::

I Just Robbed My Life From Me.

Things in my mind currently (like right now?):

1. End of 3rd block exam.
Or so I declared... There is one last forensic paper to go. Too tired for it. Thought i would hear myself cheering. But no, I am totally wasted. I felt like I have shouldered two machine guns while marching up a slope. Oh well, I did "tembak" alot alot alot! It was war of the brain cells.
There were two school of thoughts: TRUE / FALSE.

2. I've just hopped from one to another every possible friends blog sites i could possibly access.
A lil bit disturbed. So many things happened. So lil time ticked away. Am i stationary or what?
Or have I speed too fast that when I'm finally slowing down, I reach nowhere?
Ok, I'm feeling random. Bet its the exam power vacuum which sucked my juice of life right under my nose. (from my mouth lar)

3. Why do I feel distant from almost everyone?
Have I reserved myself a lil too much? I know not... This doesn't feel right but I don't have the will to any make amend.

4. Have I reached another important turning point along my life?
Well, maybe I've taken the turn without even noticing it earlier. I'm miles away from the turn now. So, there's just zero point to turn my back for a peek.

5. I have changed. I have changed. I treat people differently now. I see things from a different view. And people treat me differently too. It's weird. But again I am not too bothered. Maybe not now. Why ah?

6. Life is boring when I don't spread my wings and fly... But how to soar when I'm tied down by so many responsibilities? No, im not talking about the responsibility of fnishing my SDLs, PBLs, CBLs or ILs. The past is still loitering around.

7. My life is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo (and make that another gazillion times more) uneventful!
No more clubbing.
No more dressing up.
No more shopping.
No more speeding in my Deadly Kenari.
No more walking in high heels.
No more mini skirts.
No more hairdos.
No more flirting.
No more changes.
No more LIFE.

*static sound appearing from nowhere*

I think im gonna wilt like the plant outside at my balcony soon. I feel like the dead being brought to live in a life not meant for me. Zombified. *ZONK*

Perhaps, she was right. I am in Med school... MAD SChool! And im eventually turning mad!

" I JUST ROBBED MY LIFE FROM ME"