long heave.......
after two months of rapid liefstyle. eg: eat fast. walk fast. talk fast. and study fast.... plus insufficient sleep.... MMMC is offering us a 4 days holidays!!!!! YIPEEEE~~~
U noe wat????
I have not been sleeping well and properly and peacefully ever since the very first day i landed here! why???!! coz i have been haunted with weird dreams everytime i fall asleep. freaking everytime. one day it wuz leroy, den andru or jiun kit, yesterday it wuz mark. and one of those days my grandma and grandpa! wat dda heck! and i shall not go into the details....... they were all damn silly!
ok, im distracted wit all the chattings. i shall blog some other time. nothing inspirational is coming to my brain! thhffffff~
Friday, October 28, 2005
Saturday, October 22, 2005
Splitting My Scalp and Thrashing my self-esteem....
and so.... my story shall take another turn from the last time I abandoned this page...
Before I start, here is a set of questionaire to ponder on:
1.Who said studying abroad is once in a lifetime experience?
2.Who said living independently means proving ur maturity to yourself and ur family members?!
3.Who said having bunch of friends u are familiar with in an unfamiliar land will do u good?!!
4.WHICH sucker came up with the idea that STUDYING MEDICINE especially in a cow-dung land (as wifey put it) COOL??????!!!!
If u can answer all that, good and fine. Be happy with it. Because I havent been able to satisfy myself with any answers so far. Why?
Answer 1: Cause studying abraod in India isnt at all LIFE! It is more of a resemblent of afterlife.
Answer 2: Cause Living alone means u gotta keep up with the minute laundry, cleaning, food and all the household (ooppss.. roomhold expenses!)
Answer 3: Cause u are surrounded with a whole bunch of form 6 geeks who breathe down ur neck every interval of happiness u've got and polluting the cloud nine sensation into horror! Pressuring you not only with their action but with the air they exhale! GIMME a break man twitchy! U can handle 13 hrs of continuos studying but not me! should i be thanking God for that?
Answer: And that sucker used to be none other den ME! Myself and I!
Any-shitty-way~ I juz discovered that my head is pratically tough, just as recent as 2 am in the morning. I freaking knocked myself on the head directly on the "side-parting" of my hair into the egde of my room's cabinet which is blardy situated above my study desK! I can still remember the ache that came gushing to the part of my scalp within seconds! AAAAaaaaaUUUUuuuuuu!!!!! It was pain of agony im toking about!!! At first i thought, the worst that could have resulted from the carelessness of my action is a huge, fat bump. Never did i expect to see blood stain exactly 3cm obliquely plastered on my scalp. Thhff~ Freaked out completely when blood was still oozing out after 30 minutes after the collision!
Another thing i would wanna mention to u my dear bloggie is.... Im feeling it again. The interbatch tournament has started. Yesteday was the basketball women league... and well... urrmm.... *sigh* Im feeling the familiar resentment upon myself...... I alwayz do it! I noe i am going to feel it and yet i allow it to happen. I alwayz question myself why arent i carved out to be involved more in sports..... Im such a vege. Wat for i have a height of a god damned coconut tree when im almost useless...? I feel intimidated and incompetent. Worse still, now it even involves studies. I wish i could go out there and play and enjoy myself. I wish i was active in sports last time in school. i may look like ive got wat it takes to be a sportsman, but... i noe... im a failure..... WTF! WTF! WTF is wrong with me!
Only Love,
Su-Lin, Tan (2.33pm India)
Before I start, here is a set of questionaire to ponder on:
1.Who said studying abroad is once in a lifetime experience?
2.Who said living independently means proving ur maturity to yourself and ur family members?!
3.Who said having bunch of friends u are familiar with in an unfamiliar land will do u good?!!
4.WHICH sucker came up with the idea that STUDYING MEDICINE especially in a cow-dung land (as wifey put it) COOL??????!!!!
If u can answer all that, good and fine. Be happy with it. Because I havent been able to satisfy myself with any answers so far. Why?
Answer 1: Cause studying abraod in India isnt at all LIFE! It is more of a resemblent of afterlife.
Answer 2: Cause Living alone means u gotta keep up with the minute laundry, cleaning, food and all the household (ooppss.. roomhold expenses!)
Answer 3: Cause u are surrounded with a whole bunch of form 6 geeks who breathe down ur neck every interval of happiness u've got and polluting the cloud nine sensation into horror! Pressuring you not only with their action but with the air they exhale! GIMME a break man twitchy! U can handle 13 hrs of continuos studying but not me! should i be thanking God for that?
Answer: And that sucker used to be none other den ME! Myself and I!
Any-shitty-way~ I juz discovered that my head is pratically tough, just as recent as 2 am in the morning. I freaking knocked myself on the head directly on the "side-parting" of my hair into the egde of my room's cabinet which is blardy situated above my study desK! I can still remember the ache that came gushing to the part of my scalp within seconds! AAAAaaaaaUUUUuuuuuu!!!!! It was pain of agony im toking about!!! At first i thought, the worst that could have resulted from the carelessness of my action is a huge, fat bump. Never did i expect to see blood stain exactly 3cm obliquely plastered on my scalp. Thhff~ Freaked out completely when blood was still oozing out after 30 minutes after the collision!
Another thing i would wanna mention to u my dear bloggie is.... Im feeling it again. The interbatch tournament has started. Yesteday was the basketball women league... and well... urrmm.... *sigh* Im feeling the familiar resentment upon myself...... I alwayz do it! I noe i am going to feel it and yet i allow it to happen. I alwayz question myself why arent i carved out to be involved more in sports..... Im such a vege. Wat for i have a height of a god damned coconut tree when im almost useless...? I feel intimidated and incompetent. Worse still, now it even involves studies. I wish i could go out there and play and enjoy myself. I wish i was active in sports last time in school. i may look like ive got wat it takes to be a sportsman, but... i noe... im a failure..... WTF! WTF! WTF is wrong with me!
Only Love,
Su-Lin, Tan (2.33pm India)
Saturday, October 15, 2005
aftermath of anat test!
ARGHHH~
medicine freaks me like i've juz seen a distorted monster!
i have been mugging Chaurasia Anatomy for the whole week! Test today wasnt horrid. yeah, of coz it was not horrid coz Im more horrible looking!
in juz a day of physiology practical lab, i had to prick myself for more den 5 times on my left anterodistal middle fnger. Biatch! enuf lar one time! prick and prick and prick, no blood want to flow out! squeeze oso so stubborn! all it did was clogged there and den, after a tiny drop managed to come out. URGGHHHHHH!
Stupid lecturer sumore can tell us dat its alright, we've got dunno how many litres of blood in our body! but wat the heck? not like i can simply simply prick myself! takan he doesnt know that every month i have a visit from menses! I lose enough blood then lar!
watever lar.... interbatch basketball match is coming! HUNKS HUNKS HUNKS! *beaming* Mark and Anson is playing man! cousin against each other! bah!
Wifey is still in hosp! cant even make her laugh. if i ever tried... she will start tearing in agony... poor wifey... another pig-headed! didn bother doing ultrasound scanning in malaysia, wanna taste hempedu here in india. newayz, i got shifted leidi to a new room! damn new! damn spacious! damn nicer! damn everythin positive compared to my room back in malaysia! And of course, damner better den the current room im inhabiting.
and so... im a she-hulk here in india. ppl find it very amusing to give me nicknames thinking i will love it and be fond with it! DOINKS! not enuf wif insulin and pinky... now im a she-hulk... of all things... though i remember having a blue-hulk as my nick before when i wuz in f5.
And if u are reading dis! u noe who u are! Mushie the mushroommmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!! BWAHAHAHHAH! im still gonna pester you on how the heck u hear me snoring all the way from New AC and heard me snored out my blog address.
medicine freaks me like i've juz seen a distorted monster!
i have been mugging Chaurasia Anatomy for the whole week! Test today wasnt horrid. yeah, of coz it was not horrid coz Im more horrible looking!
in juz a day of physiology practical lab, i had to prick myself for more den 5 times on my left anterodistal middle fnger. Biatch! enuf lar one time! prick and prick and prick, no blood want to flow out! squeeze oso so stubborn! all it did was clogged there and den, after a tiny drop managed to come out. URGGHHHHHH!
Stupid lecturer sumore can tell us dat its alright, we've got dunno how many litres of blood in our body! but wat the heck? not like i can simply simply prick myself! takan he doesnt know that every month i have a visit from menses! I lose enough blood then lar!
watever lar.... interbatch basketball match is coming! HUNKS HUNKS HUNKS! *beaming* Mark and Anson is playing man! cousin against each other! bah!
Wifey is still in hosp! cant even make her laugh. if i ever tried... she will start tearing in agony... poor wifey... another pig-headed! didn bother doing ultrasound scanning in malaysia, wanna taste hempedu here in india. newayz, i got shifted leidi to a new room! damn new! damn spacious! damn nicer! damn everythin positive compared to my room back in malaysia! And of course, damner better den the current room im inhabiting.
and so... im a she-hulk here in india. ppl find it very amusing to give me nicknames thinking i will love it and be fond with it! DOINKS! not enuf wif insulin and pinky... now im a she-hulk... of all things... though i remember having a blue-hulk as my nick before when i wuz in f5.
And if u are reading dis! u noe who u are! Mushie the mushroommmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!! BWAHAHAHHAH! im still gonna pester you on how the heck u hear me snoring all the way from New AC and heard me snored out my blog address.
Sunday, October 09, 2005
crazy ?
Blurr.. Blurr.. Blurr...
Doubts.. Doubts.. Doubts...
"Do u have any doubts?" OOooo OOoo?
yeah, I have teacher. can u please repeat starting from the inhibition of Su-Lin's feelings?
and teacher teacher.. I love the way u pronouns stratified epithelium. Lattisimus dorsii and erythroblastosis foetalis sir! cud u please repat it another 7x5 times?
ice cream is damn cheap here. Butterscotch! yum yum! mam mam! growing fat! *flashes both thumbs up* YIpeee!
Doubts.. Doubts.. Doubts...
"Do u have any doubts?" OOooo OOoo?
yeah, I have teacher. can u please repeat starting from the inhibition of Su-Lin's feelings?
and teacher teacher.. I love the way u pronouns stratified epithelium. Lattisimus dorsii and erythroblastosis foetalis sir! cud u please repat it another 7x5 times?
ice cream is damn cheap here. Butterscotch! yum yum! mam mam! growing fat! *flashes both thumbs up* YIpeee!
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
fly away! try pronouncing Gundam in malay! dats the way i pronounce it! lets go buy G-U-N (goon)
Hu...hu...hu...hu...hu...
I miss my family... I am not even sure whether those are tears of joy (becoz I am missing them at last) or echo of melancholiness...
WTH! LOLZ... I started missing them after one month?!? Liz told me I took a freaking one month to realize. WARK~ Well, I made a phone call back to a place I call home one month ago before getting and staying in a so-called temporary hostel room, which by some random chance is rundown whereby the waiting seem so~ E-T-E-R-N-I-T-Y...(I still cant get over it!!) :::::SIGH:::: Anywayz, it was nice talking to mummy and ah min! Heheheh! Bro is facing PMR at the moment. And Im such a lousy sista for not knowing the date he started writing his paper. This poor stranded sister in a faraway land was only informed after he sat for his first paper. *sob sob sob*
If I were back in Malaysia, I would be buying good luck card to sibuk-menyibuk. Apart from that, being a great helpful big tai kar ceh (yeah right, my arse), I will also mengambil bahagian in burning the midnight oil together with him! (YEAH! Finish the oil faster so that both of us can sleep earlier) LAME! Yet I love to make such remark ar!
Hiya... I miss mummy... I miss Min didi... I miss Him too... Damn it!
Only Love,
Sulin Tan (10.15 pm in India)
I miss my family... I am not even sure whether those are tears of joy (becoz I am missing them at last) or echo of melancholiness...
WTH! LOLZ... I started missing them after one month?!? Liz told me I took a freaking one month to realize. WARK~ Well, I made a phone call back to a place I call home one month ago before getting and staying in a so-called temporary hostel room, which by some random chance is rundown whereby the waiting seem so~ E-T-E-R-N-I-T-Y...(I still cant get over it!!) :::::SIGH:::: Anywayz, it was nice talking to mummy and ah min! Heheheh! Bro is facing PMR at the moment. And Im such a lousy sista for not knowing the date he started writing his paper. This poor stranded sister in a faraway land was only informed after he sat for his first paper. *sob sob sob*
If I were back in Malaysia, I would be buying good luck card to sibuk-menyibuk. Apart from that, being a great helpful big tai kar ceh (yeah right, my arse), I will also mengambil bahagian in burning the midnight oil together with him! (YEAH! Finish the oil faster so that both of us can sleep earlier) LAME! Yet I love to make such remark ar!
Hiya... I miss mummy... I miss Min didi... I miss Him too... Damn it!
Only Love,
Sulin Tan (10.15 pm in India)
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