Second chance in life everyday...

The winner of post card from Paris, je t'aime competition...

She really deserves a win. =)

"If you were given a second chance in life, what is the one thing you will change about yourself?...

Aren't we given a second chance in life everyday?
I think I am, and everyday I take it to try to love those around me for who they are and to love myself for who I am.
Nobody is perfect, and it is in this imperfection that we experience life to the fullest :)...."

Everybody deserves a second chance.

Because life itself gives you a second chance...

...when you wake up the next day =)

After that moment of enlightenment, i definitely will look at the whole process of waking up in the morning (in my case evening) everyday in a completely different perspective.

And for that, i personally feel that no one else has the right to give anyone else another chance if it wasn't for life's condonation itself.

Geddit?

Think big!

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I made a mistake the night before.

A mistake which seems negligible given the state of mind and environment i was in. I had fun. We all had fun.

But a blunder like this affect everyone else's opinion towards me.

Call me defensive. I do not care.

For i have my own dictum to life. I know what i am doing and where i am headed. Feeling disappointed is one thing but judging me is altogether another thing. I expect no judgement from you if i tend not to judge you.

What more if you are a someone dear to me.

Anyhow, like how Jh puts it, there are certain behaviours that irk me but they don't irk the rest, and vice versa. I suppose he is right. It felt alot better hearing that. The very fact that he is the one person who was suppose to be angry at me in this matter but he let it pass... because he knows me.

You are the best boyfriend ever!

I am sad to say that i do not understand some of my friends anymore. Very heartbreaking indeed but its better i realise it now than never.

And at this very moment, i need you Shan because i know you too know me best.

Life as we know it...

I noticed that i am an emotional author. An author who tends to write a lot on deep stuff.

Stuffs that i bet only 1 or at most 2 souls can understand. That sometimes i find myself staring agog at those endless paragraphs to unravel the actual events attached to them.

As much as i want to write inspirational, motivational and self-correctional blog, i am not gifted to do so. In fact, i find it so difficult to get good flows of sentences and spontaneous remarks. Unfortunately i may have abundance of ideas but lack of talent in delivery.

Maybe that is the reason why i often get tongue tied during conversations.

Another problem i have is repetition. I keep writing about the same thing. Ie: this post!

Lamenting about the same issues over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again. There, i did it again! Super cheong heii. Sigh.

So, why am i typing at this hour? Urmm... because im done with facebook for the day.

Back to basic when facebook wasn't around. Seems like a good day to honor the existence of my blog. Blog sphere used to be my virtual hangout space. A place i found solace when my head was filled with explosive questions. It was some'one' i felt comfortable talking to when i felt lonely and also a place i built with my imaginations. Most importantly a zone i can shut myself away from the nasty world. Well, after all it is the only tunnel that link me to my past painful and bittersweet memories which remained so fresh albeit the changing passage of time.

Come to think of it, funny how much i have changed in 5 years but my feelings towards many people and things never expired. More so funny when newer affections arrived along the way and sit themselves snuggly on top of the already jam packed memory box. Over time, they all settled down to give way and accommodate even more recent chronicles of life.

Bah~ As usual, i am beating around the bush again. I guess the only reason i am here tonight is because i want to read this post and laugh about my silliness in another 5 years time.

*makes funny faces*

This is not the first time i feel disappointed with people around me...

Is it worth my trouble?

Times when you feel like you are being taken for granted. What do you do?

Pre-Battle #6

the world is at a stand still....

i can hear echoes of cruelty a few blocks away...

and the air is still engulfed with smokes and smell of blood from the massacres two weeks ago...

every once in a while i see glimpse of lightning from the horizon...

i too hear thunder from a distance...

snapping me out of my daze at intervals...

chills are running down my spine as i think about tomorrow...

i shut my eyes and mumbled a few prayers...

"Good luck to all of us..." are the only words i could muster...

"Am i fit physically and psychologically for the war of half the decade?"

I waited for a reply but...

Only silence reverberates within my tent...

I do not know what sunrise has in store for me the next day...

But whatever happens, i will still take pride in all the previous marches...

And... i shall not die in vain....

Battle #5

Today, we were brought to 10 stations to meet various Military Brigade Generals, Commanders, Lieutenants, Colonels & Captains of different commissions for clearance.
We were honored the green ticket to march into the ultimate war of half-the-decade against the strongest enemy force in 2 weeks time! =)
Wish all of us luck!!!

Gambatero!

Battle #4

Headed to war in the morning with freaking weird anthem : Justin Bieber's Baby.

Situation in the battlefield is worse today.

A lot more civilians were running around more than usual.

The rest of the shootings are history...
Aims were pretty horrible today....

Battle #3

Successfully shot down a lot of people, but i am not sure if i hit the assailants or the bystander...

However, i feel more triumphant today!

Battle #2

I lost my way while heading to the battle ground.