in the realm of emptiness...

The darkness along with the silence that surround him inside out...
He must have be really scared...
I cannot imagine how his world is like at the moment...

he used to be able to see from his right eye...
the only means of communication between him and the world...
now,
even that has been taken away from him...

i wish i could do something to help him ease this suffering...
looking at him from a few inches away...
i feel so crushed...
tears were balancing at the edges and corner of my eyes...
but i held it back
i want to be strong at least for him
i dont want my brothers to start crying too...

this is the same feelings i experienced 7 years back
when i was camping outside the CCU
hoping and praying for mama's recovery...
battling with the stages of possibility of losing someone dear...
now it is happening again...

these might be the last few moments i could spend with him...
he is struggling...
in pain, in fear,
he is probably waiting for daddy to come back from oversea...
he is fighting against his fate maybe...

why do people have to die...?

mama...
please take care of yeh yeh...
he needs the strength and consolation...