Journey rekindled

I have forgotten the feeling of how reading books can imbue all the neurons and sensories i never knew i once had. 

I could giggle to myself into teary eyes from the paraphrasing and simple yet powerful imagination. Some parts left me laughing out loud uncontrollably. 

I now remember books have the ability to unlock that compelling satisfaction and it is addictive when you start one after another. 

Sophie kinsella has always been one of my favourite author. Her ability to tap on character’s head in her book is what strike me as raw and genuine.  I also love how her writing incorporate disclosures and afterthoughts (side voice from the mind) pretty much like mine. I find that similarity so uncanny. 

That is - My not so perfect life :) 

Then there is this book that left me crying buckets. It hit the exact spot and activated a stream of tears as my thoughts traversed back into the abyss of unpleasant memory storage. I revisited my first encounter of death of a very close family - my grandmother. I ended up with swollen eyes and sobbing spells. 

That is - When life became breathe. 😢

Last book i read was factfulness. It was such an eye opening book. I never realised how I was part of a systemic human judgement until i complete this. This book debunks misconceptions and tears down the very dramatic worldview I once believed in. 

He left us this book for us to constantly check on our skewed and nasty human tendency to judge. Also a doctor who has dedicated his whole life in public health, research and absolutely committed to help his fellow human being to understand the inevitable change and steady uphill progress of the world. 

I took longer to complete this book because i was carefully immersing myself into every global details, data, statistics, graphs and explanations. Thank you Dr. Hans Rosling for this book. Wish he was still around to comb through the world today in covid era and hear his impartial view of the current situation. 

I did not realise i have inadvertently picked 3 different genres of book for my project last month. Fictional (light and hilarious), non fictional (knowledge), fictional (biodata of a dying neurosurgeon). 

Reading has also revoked my love (desire) to journal or what many of us call blog. 🙃 

Signing of, 

Ripples of serenity... 

Compelled

It took me exactly 2 attempts on 2 seperate days to complete Once upon a time in hollywood.

I have heard enough about the repertoire of Quentin tarantino as a director but admittedly i havent watched any of his masterpieces. Not even his recent few - django unchained and inglorius basterds.

So, while taking into consideration horrible reviews from many fellow movie connoisseur, I reminded myself to embrace this movie with an open mind.
(Afterall Leo is acting, how bad can that be?)

Unfortunately it was’t as easy as i thought. 10mins into the movie, i found myself feeling unattracted to the storyline. Thus I abandoned the plan to continue watching it few days back.

Today i put the movie on again, and 30minutes into the movie, i still failed to connect with the movie. I found myself distracted with the phone and chocolates.

Heck, i was watching only for the sake of wanting to check the movie off my list once and for all. I felt lost and uninspired like how the rest of leo’s movies would have made me feel halfway through.
I perservered. It finished the movie after 6 hours. 😅

(Without a doubt, Leo is an excellent actor)

To be extremely honest, i only enjoyed the last 10minutes of the movie. Because it was filled with actions and it felt less monotonous.

Movie ended, i was left baffled and unsettled. Me being me, I googled the meaning behind this masterpiece and i learnt about the horrifying murder of Sharon Tate in august 1969 by the manson family.

Now all i can say is - “Fuckin’ hell. QT is a genius”

Pandemics of Covid -19

Malaysians definition of restricted movement control order : 

1. Panic buying > queue for hours at cashier in the supermarket 

2. Lining up outside police station when PDRM announce that interstate travelling requires application

3. Balik fucking kampung to spread the virus to their frail parents, grandparents and at the same time diffusing the virus concentration in the city to countrysides thus zero containment! 

*slowclaps* lim bu give you all one like 

Malaysia boleh! Always infamous for the wrong reason! Number 1 most obese country in SEA. 

Now number 1 in the total number of covid 19 cases (highest surge per day too! 100-150% increment) 

Not forgetting all the cases that stem from the initial religious, travel matta fair, fishing competition gatherings!!! 

What da fook are you guys smoking? 

Already 2 mortalities. Does everyone want to aim for the highest death rate in SEA too now? 

#sipekstress #2mortalities

Belieber!

10 years ago, the world was “blessed” with..

And I was like baby, baby, baby oh
Like baby, baby, baby no
Like baby, baby, baby oh
I thought you'd always be mine (mine)

10 years later, JB did it again with...

Yeah, you got that yummy, yum
That yummy, yum
That yummy, yummy...

Both cause the same auditory and psychological effect. You either hate it to the core (yet you secretly hum to it) or you are a staunch BELIEBER while spreading his annoying song everywhere.

MJ must be turning in his grave 🙄

I wonder what is in store the next 10 years for us human! So bloody looking forward!

Bangkok expedition

One of the best customer service ever! Without a doubt i would rate it a 6 stars!

Found a write up about this shop and i was determined to try it. I set out alone to Bang Khun Non district hunting for this. Grab car dropped me quite a distance away from the actual location while time was running out! I frantically marched along the street like a mad hangry person while stopping passerby to ask where exactly is the shop. Communicating in English and getting reply in Thai! *pulls hair off scalp* Took me some time before i got to the place. Alas, by the time i found the shop, the shop grill was halfway down and they are closed for the day. Told me to come back tomorrow! I was so bummed for failing to try it myself after travelling 20mins out of the city centre!

However, after much persuasion, the owners took pity of me and cooked up the basic tomyam noodles with whatever meatballs and pork paste left 😭 #forevergrateful

Tewli and the chef are super friendly and they even gave me a complimentary lemongrass homemade juice for free. Tomyam is exactly the right note of spiciness i expected and it is authentic! Do take note that their original soup is made out of soy milk!

Will most definitely come back to this place the next round i come to bangkok!

This shop is tucked right in the middle of Bang Khun Non street. Look out for street no 7 which is opposite no 4.

Perks of solo travelling. :)

When they see us

“When they see us”
Rating : 10/10
Finished the mini series in one night. So disheartening that these minors were taken away from the society and life at their prime tender age as teenagers.

Also because wrong conviction always happen, this is one of the reason why death penalty should be repealed. It happens.

Sad to say, 41 million USD cannot buy back the time lost in imprisonment due to wrong conviction. We are talking about a timeline of 6-14 years robbed from you at the age of 15yrs old. #cruel

Primary Healthcare

Im not done with primary healthcare always being at the lowest of the food chain. Primary healthcare in malaysia is being treated like an isolated department which deals with useless cases. Instead of structural integration of primary healthcare as part of the healthcare system, Primary healthcare doctors are always labelled as doctor tekak and mc.

Everyone keep saying emergency department is being misused, abused and flooded by non emergency cases. What is done to change that? Nothing.

Imagine the workload reduction for doctors, specialists, consultants in tertiary centre if we are able to manage 80% of chronic diseases like diabetes, hypertension, cholesterol, astha, thyroid without letting it slip into their absolutely horrendous side effect counterparts?

Infact primary healthcare physician job is to educate on chronic diseases and bring awareness of medical war ie obesity, anti vaccination, unwanted pregnancy, diabetes and high blood complications, correct the myth of misinterpretion about how taking multiple medicine can lead to dialysis and kidney failure. We have the power to educate on contraceptions usage and monitor blood sugar and blood pressure efficiently at any given days. We are the first barrier to healthcare.

Another topic to discuss next day.
Kk and gp. Should have worked hand in hand. But there are still misconception about kk ubat is more power than gp’s ubat. Padahal same ubat.

Why because many doctors going into gps wanna earn fast money from medicine. Gp undercuting one another. Chain Gp is now a business instead of healthcare service. Majority Gps have lost touch of the golden family ties. Nada. Nil. Zero.

Many Gps have not lived by the dictum “prevention is better than cure” coz money seems the best unfortunately.

Also, what do we get most of the time? Being looked down upon and verbally abused by hospital doctors. Being labelled doctor tekak and doctor mc. And the list goes on and on and on and on. 🥶

Lastly, to all my friends and public strangers, i will not be nice anymore next time you ask me this:

What do u do?
Im a doctor.
So What do u specialise in?
Im a family doctor ie Gp.
Oh doctor dont wanna specialise?

OR

Doctor are you in aesthetic?

Like no. *shoot! Bazooka! Laser! Headhsot!
I love what im doing. Im a primary healthcare doctor who deals with everything under the sun. I vouch to be the first contact for u and your family. To ask for advice. To speak to confidentially about your unprotected sex, about how your life is driving you nuts ie depression, about stupid issues that you cant seem to shake off ie anxiety/ocd, to discuss on effectiveness of managements, cheaper costs of management.

Wtf. Just because you guys cant google ligitation management or law pointers, u all bully the profession who studied freaking 5yrs in medicine.

Imagine going to a lawyer and then demand for a consultation. Then complain why so expensive wan!

That asides, big business in chain clinics are paying peanuts for locum. Rm 35-40 per hour! How cheap. And junior doctors and many still get cheated. TBH we deserve it because many of us whore ourselves. And of course the supply is way more than demand.

Let me reiterate:
Our worth is not rm 40/ hour.
Oud worth is not consultation of rm5-15/patient.
Then want to cry when pharmacist fight for dispensing seperation!

People really underestimate the importance of primary healthcare. Maybe because of some nila, rosak susu sebelanga. Hospital green zone should shut off urti, dandruff but we cant. Everything is so bloody messed up.

Whatever la. I will advocate what and who i can.
As comparison to other first world countries, primary healthcare importance in my desr country has a a big contrasting effort.

 #riphealthcare END OF RANTING.

Amoi Banana

900million - 1.1 billion MYR were the estimated “donations” received and were kept in a person’s home! Wadafuckinfuck was that???

And everyone was jumping and parroting into the dUMbNO’s tempurung of constitution and kedaulataan negara and race base politics when LGE’s announcement in Mandarin shook the country’s so called sovereignty. That too after the initial announcement was in Bahasa Malaysia and English. Ladies and gentlemen, Mandarin is not racist but the hooman and people are.

Alot of my Malay and Indian friends are sending their kids to Mandarin school.

Why? Because Mandarin is an art to master. It is often spoken and a widely used language in the world and in asia.

Why i am for mandarin?
I am a #Banana. For those who dont know me iz a banana - i look like chinese, sometimes sound like one (mostly indianized), has sepet eyes BUT i cant read and write in mandarin.

It is tough. It is challenging. It is disheartening and demoralizing at times when i cannot communicate to my patients the original crux of my management or persuading/advising in full parallel understanding of my knowledge. Mostly, im worried what i try to imply were lost in translation.

I cant sing any Jay chou or Lee hom’s song without being laughed at my incorrect pronunciation. But i still do it anyways la. Whatever 🙄

I picked up Mandarin over my years of clinical practice because i find it practical and it amazes me how languages connect hooman. Working on strengthening my canton pop at the same time too thanks to my crazy talkative colleague.

I speak good bahasa malaysia with strong malay slang so much so, that many of my patients ask me if im a Malay root amoi. Because it is important i speak the same language when i see and converse to people of the same ethnicity.

I tried communicating with saudi arabians in arabic  and bangladeshis/indian nationals in hindi when i consult them for lengthy medical issues hoping they will get what my sincere concern of their health are. Using google translate of course.

Heck if i was in sabah or sarawak i would learn their languages too. Because people tend to open up and feel comfortable to another hooman when they feel connected in language. And oh not forgetting through food and sports too.

We just need to get the message across as true and as clear as possible.

My point is, LGE translating in Mandarin after announcing it in Bahasa malaysia and English are excellent. Im sure he would love to do it in as many languages as possible if he could.

Im also damn sure if given a chance, tun M would like to learn mandarin and probably announce in mandarin as well. Imagine if Kj and syed sadiq starts speaking and translating their announcement in mandarin to reach the older aunties and uncles?

More heartwarming. More inclusiveness.

Next aim for tamil ok? #serepebinjirom

#sobengang #bengapalsoada #bengong #kanasai

#ramaimudahtersentak4nogoddamnreasonwhentheactualkleptocratandhisbloodywifeisstilllivingaluxurylife

Signing off,
Amoi cina terakhir.