i hear myself thinking loudly...

almost everyone i know on this surface of planet earth is excited about new year...
but why am i not feeling the hype?
have i grown out of it?

perhaps too many things took place...
they kind of shaken me up a bit inside out...
being at a war with anyone isn't my strength
let alone if that somebody is closely related to me
it sucks to be a bitch

however life have molded me to be a hardy when it has to narrow down to 2 options:
1. to triumph over the situation with pride and let conscience eats me

OR

2. to raise the white flag, stink like a loser, and then let the regrets eat me up as well

i think i went for #1

anyhow, it is 31st of december of 2009
i am beginning to wonder if have i grown wiser? or if i have became shallower?

i did things i have never got around doing...
i did things i never imagined myself doing...
and
i did things that i partially think are childish and at the same time very crucial to execute...

*triple sighs...*

guess i am going to walk across this very first day of new year without any resolution in mind.
let the nature takes its course. *nods*

Only love <3
dr.sexy tan (2:47am)