Who is that Hot Stuff?

a spit of comments.
a groan of aches.
a moment to confuse.
a reason to fight.
a tear to trickle.
an antidote to laugh.
a lameness to feed on.

Its all in here!

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Balance?

Who says you need to travel across globe to find inspiration?
Who says you need to physically experience the breath of another breeze, literally hearing the cackles of another cultures and walk the earth of another country to locate yourself and find the definition of life?

I just felt that swell of excitement and the glow of happiness from within just by being home. Sitting or rather couch potato-ing in front of my new found love => Toshiba flat screen TV which serves the purpose of a mini cinema for movies i've missed. Finding out about the USB port built into it is probably the brilliant most thing ever invented.

2 hours and 15minutes, sitting right there in my hall, sipping my favourite earl grey tea fixed in one of my mum's cup collection i rummaged from her precisely arranged "cup" shelves... Haha. With a lot of in between toilet visits which was a few hops away.

Eat, Pray, Love.
I know, i know, i am slow... Like superbly slow to finally watch it.

But today seems like the right weather and the rightest moment to go through this movie.
Why?

Because it taught me quite a bit about life... Because it made me reflect a lot about what has happened to me and my so called poorly extricated decisions i made in the past. And as usual, dreamers like me LOVE relating characters from movies/series/story books to my narcissistic self. =)
And the best part is, it makes me want to blog today!

Came across a few wisdom words in the movies.
I am a sucker for quotes. T.T

Anyways, this movie is about an achiever woman who has everything is life except coming into terms with herself. Balance as she calls it. So setting of to 3 different parts of the continents, she finally located that missing pieces within her but only to realise she might be losing it again to this scary intangible invisible feeling called love. Oh well, i guess everyone must have gone through this phase of life. Me included.

I always thought something was obviously very wrong with me... How can you just let go so much just for something you found just a few months ago and also for a future you are not certain of?

Here are the answers:

"Sometimes to lose balance for love is part of living balance in life..."

"Everybody needs affection, it makes you do funny things. Especially at the beginning of any love affair, you want too much of happiness and pleasure until you fall sick, and everybody lose themselves..."

It is indeed scary and fearful but you know you have never felt this good before being with another person. And you do not need complex bombastic words to describe these feelings. Only that ONE automatic smile to know the IT feeling.

And for that i dedicate this entree for you sweetheart.
Everything can be falling apart but as long as the bond that hold both you and me together does not break, i am sure this is just another passing phase. *denial mode onz* hehe.  

Only Love,
Serenity... 
growing up isn't a just mere statement you type on fb for the world to see... 
Today it hits me so hard that it is the unexplainable, unpredictable and unimaginable horror gut feeling that makes your heart aches and mind goes light headed...
Only to realise you have done the undoable things and wished you have tapped on a different button of options in that few particular moments of life...

Sunday, December 04, 2011

I might be in denial...
What if everyone is right?
I am only going against all odds believing someone who doesn't believe in me...
It pains me to accept not just being away on crucial dates and celebrations of the year, but now it pains me more to know the truth... But i'd always opt for the truth. It makes me stronger.

I get a pang of jealousy looking at how successful everyone is doing...
All i wanted was someone to love me back like how i love that person...
Is that such a difficult request to be fulfilled?
I guess it is...
And it very much still involves karma...
Only difference, it was directed at me without filter.

And no, i don't ever want to be with someone who thinks there is someone better out there.
Because i have been there and done that. I put someone through that ache i can never ever forgive myself.
Well, i will be the better person, and not allow the other person to walk through that sinful path and also not to allow myself to go through such aches.
Afterall i am the weaker one, because right now, i love more...

"Gratefulness is the key to a happy life that we hold in our hands, because if we are not grateful, then no matter how much we have we will not be happy -- because we will always want to have something else or something more."


NOTED.