Who is that Hot Stuff?

a spit of comments.
a groan of aches.
a moment to confuse.
a reason to fight.
a tear to trickle.
an antidote to laugh.
a lameness to feed on.

Its all in here!

Monday, May 04, 2009

Knock Me Down...

Sometimes love comes around...
and it knocks you down...
Just get back up
When it knocks you down...


we have grown apart
for the longest time in my longest relationship...

we have been distant yet we are so near physically

(yes, it hurts but in a way that i never realized..
while it gnaws me subc0nciously..., i was actually fixing the wrong thing...)


a lesson i had to learn

through a painful way but nevertheless memorable and unforgettable

that feelings are everything in maintaining a great relationship..


we are different,

in so many ways yet so little ways
and when two very different individuals' paths co
me to a cross road
it is very perplexing how they decided, managed and traveled the same journey
together
or how they entwined hands, walked that same parallel path and stayed next to each other no matter what happened

=)


this is when i learnt what love is...

a powerful word yet misused commonly

for love is not just doing everything together, thinking of each other, merely holding each other hands or making hot sizzling love...

but it involves that ultimate level of intimacy...
(no, i am NOT talking about bedtime activities)

also accepting each other differences in ways that
no one can ever comprehend
and longing for each other in that implicit and unexpressed fashion

that when you look into each other's eyes

you see for yourself that love lies within the stare
and is written all over in the other person's eyes

when love is conveyed in an unspoken manne
r
you know that you have both reached that dream destination


today i had a wake up call

from the recession i have been drowning in


i am glad
because now i know...
sometimes love comes around,
it knocked us down

as we fell in the pit of love

then we soared together back to the surface


but then it knocked me down again as time passes by

this time i went down alone

and i lost myself and him...

luckily,
i got back up,
as he held his hand to me and pulled me up
closer to him
i brushed my knees and bums
clasped my hand into his

and we continue walking

You wont see it coming when it happens
but when it happens you are gonna feel it,
let me tell you now
you see it when love knocks you down...



i truly love you baby
and i will never let you go...
thanks for taking my breathe away
and taking me through a roller coaster ride of my life!!!

with this, i dedicate this song to you and me!



With love <3
5:16am
Dr.SexyTan
(will edit some typos and grammars tommorow.. *yawns*)

Friday, May 01, 2009

life recession?

I have been feeling emotionally disorientated lately
Not a good feeling, i must say...
It has been stalking me wherever i go
Even into my sleep sometimes..

Frankly, I do not know what i have become or,
what i have to expect and least expect in life
It cannot get anymore complicated
As i battle with my own thoughts
Only the unhappy thoughts triumphed

I feel distant again with everyone
including him
is this some kind of a life recession period?
that i get every now and then?

Probably i just need some time alone
maybe a personal space with just me and myself...

It is not easy
But I know he will make it easier for me
as he always does...


Only love <3